The plane ride finally ended, after what seemed like forever. I cried the whole way, and people kept asking me if I was okay. I didn't answer anyone. There was no way that I would talk, I feel so empty. I am not sad, or happy. I am nothing.
I step off the plane and sigh when I see my mom. I dont want her to worry even more about me. I already put her through so much... "Hey Brookey, Im so sorry that happened.. I really thought that trip would be good for you. Are you okay?" I shrug, looking down. "Oh, honey." She pulls me in for a hug. "Lets go home and unpack. How's that sound?" I hesitate at first, then slowly nod my head. "Whats the matter? Not talk-" She suddenly stopped and realized what I was doing. "Youre not doing this again are you? Oh my gosh Brooke, are you okay? Im so sorry I let you go.." I hold up a thumbs up so she knows Im okay, and start walking, cause I dont want to keep standing in the middle of the airport. I hear her let out a shaky sigh behind me. I shake it off and continue walking with her following until we reach the car. I sit in the passenger seat, and while my mom starts up the car, I get a text. Wow, I never text anyone.
Hey, Its Luke. (:
Wow Luke just texted me...
Hey Luke, what's up? (:
Nothing. I miss you already...
"What are you looking at?" My mom asks me. I guess I was smiling down at my phone without even realizing. I just shake my head so she'll stop talking.
I miss you too. I hate being here. Nothing will ever be the same. ):
Why do you say that? ):
Because there are too many bad memories here. And I will never be as happy as I was with you guys.... Especially you, Luke. /:
I bite my lip waiting for a response. After a few minutes, my phone buzzes.
Nothing will be the same here either, Brooke. To be honest, the whole trip I was trying to tell you that I like you, but I was too shy.. But now I feel like Im too late.. )':
I cant help but let out a little gasp. He likes me? Luke Hemmings likes me? What will my brother think?
I like you too. (:
We pull up in my driveway and I sigh, knowing things will go back to how they were. Back when I hated life. Wait, did I ever stop hating life? Huh, I guess I did. When I was with Luke.. Maybe hes what I need. Maybe hes my cure. He makes it all go away, even better than my brother ever did. But now, theyre both gone. And so is my chance at being happy.
I sit down at the kitchen table and pull out my phone. Theres a message from Luke.
You like me too? Ugh I should have told you before you left! ): When will I see you again?
Hopefully soon. Maybe when you guys tour around here. /:
A few tears form in my eyes, while I think about how I may not see them for a very long time. My mom sits at the table by me and puts an arm around my back. "Honey, are you okay?" She asks, sounding very tired. I cant put her through this. I smile and nod, although my eyes are full of tears. I quickly run up to my room and cry. I shove my headphones in my ears and blast 5 Seconds of Summer, trying to calm down.
I finally take my pills and drift off to sleep to the sound of Beside you playing in my ears.
