Ethan's Desire.

Twelve

Ethan Miller.

   Its almost been a week since I had last saw her. I have been thinking about her day and night nonetheless, I have been loosing my mind and I spent almost every day thinking about what has been going on in my life without her by my side.

I AM DRUNK IN LOVE?!

I took in a sharp, deep breath trying to focus on work but my head just keep wandering back to her. I have been thinking none stop about her safety wondering about how she's doing.

'Should I go see her?'

'Should I say Hi or I should call her instead?'

'Should I use Marie as an excuse to go see her?'

'I mean she did tell me to leave?'.

I bowed my head into my hands as I was faced an inner turmoil going on inside of me.

I took out my phone and tapped on the screen dialing a familiar number and I pressed it to my ear, after a few rings the receiver picked up.

"Hello".

"Hey Em". I replied to her.

"How are you? its been some time that we'd last chatted, you know?".

"Yeah I've been busy with work and stuff".

"Are you okay? If you're calling it must be serious?".

"Yeah can we meet at Joe's in like  one hour, I want to talk to you".

"Well okay see you then". She cut the call leaving me to my thoughts.

I sighed and stood up from my seat, grabbing my jacket and leaving the station heading for Joe's bar to meet my sister, Empress.

  
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I entered into the bar studying my surroundings, the bar has been in existence for roughly about seven years now and it was a regular joint for my colleagues and I.

There were just a few people drinking and chatting going on about their lives without any regard to what was happening around them.

I approached and sat on a bar stool and ordered a beer from the bar tender and began to take few sips of my drink waiting patiently for her, listening to the faint music.

A few minutes later the door opened and in came Empress. She immediately saw me and walked towards me taking the seat next to me. She also ordered a beer and then turned in my direction.

"I'm guessing you're having lady trouble". She said all of a sudden catching me by surprise and I turned and looked at her astonishingly.

  I sighed as a huge grin broke out on her face,I chuckled darkly making her confused and puzzled.

"She's married". I said flatly turning away from her as her face fell.

"Wow, i'm sorry bro". She consoled looking concerned.

I sighed and drank my beer before I replied.

"She has a daughter, a smart one. Empress she drives me crazy, i mean her husband's got a job out of country she's just by herself and her kid. ". I blurted out to her. "Em , i'm falling for her and I don't know what to do. I just finally kissed her Em and I want her to be completely mine but we can't, she rejects me, she's faithful to her husband I get that but I can't help but feel helpless knowing that I feel this way towards her and I know she does for me too". I cried out exasperatingly.

"Did she tell you that she has feelings for you too?". She interrogated.

"She said she's attracted to me but I know its more than that Empress. The way we feel towards each other Em, we have serious chemistry and i don't know what to do, she pushed me away". I took in a deep breath to calm myself.

"There are sometimes that we want something and we can't have it, we just have to accept it like that and deal with the situation in whatever way we can". She advised. "You just have to start somewhere Ethan and hope it'll get better some day".

  I smiled weakly at her and drank all my beer leaning into her for a hug.

"Thanks for coming Em". I said into her neck.

"Hey what's family for huh?". She joked.

  We stayed for sometime before we bade each other goodbye. I drive my car with one purpose and destination racing through my mind. After a few minutes i pulled up into the familiar building with a mission in heart.