Ethan's Desire.

Eighteen

Venus Cavannaugh

        There were three rings on the receiver before he was able to pick up the phone.

"Hello". He said through the line.

"Ethan, it's me Venus".

"Oh". He sighed in relief. "How are you doing? I'm do sorry that I couldn't stay to see you awake, are you alright?". He asked concernedly.

"I'm okay just happy to hear your voice".

"I've met Liam already, he seems... okay". He drawed nonchalantly.

"That's what I wanted to talk to you about. Ethan I don't think we can see each other anymore". I said painfully not being able to go on.

"What do you mean?". He asked in shallow breaths.

It took me a while to catch my breath, I could feel tears clouding my vision already, my throat closing up.

"Ethan you know that Liam is back and you know that we've talked about this before, about what's going to happen." I forced out before I could stop myself.

"What does this mean for us?". He asked solemnly already knowing the answer.

Tears have already started flooding my cheeks by now, am impending answer filling the silence between us.

  "Ethan I can't see you anymore, I.......". I stopped not knowing if I can continue anymore. I covered my mouth to stop myself from crying out.

"Just because he's back doesn't mean we can't see each other anymore. I don't think I can be able to hold myself from seeing you Venus". He pleaded breaking my heart even more.

  I breath in deeply before talking,
"Ethan please understand me..."

"I'm trying but I can't". He said. "You've always talked about how you're having problems with Ethan".

"I can't leave him Ethan, he's my.. husband".

I could even hear him sobbing in pain through the phone. A pain that I've caused. Part of me wants to run to Ethan no matter the cost but I should have Marie in mind. What this would do for her, how she would be away from her father. I had to make a decision to fight for my daughter.

"Ethan I've decided what's best for both Marie and I. He's still my husband and I'm willing to stand by him. I'm sorry but I can't see you anymore just respect my decision. Bye Ethan". I said then cut the line.

  I slumped against the bathroom door bawling my eyes out wishing that the pain would go away. I could feel my heart breaking into a million pieces. My chest heaving with great effort trying to block out the agony of not having to see Ethan anymore.

I just layed on the cold tiles trying to let go of the horrid memory of leaving him. My chest aching, my breath shallow, a headache grown. A knock on the door startled me and I sat up immediately in fear.

"Who is it?". I asked, my throat rough and scratchy.

"Venus how long have you been in there?". Liam asked through the door.

I quickly wiped the tears off my eyes and looked at the mirror if my face was okay.
"I'm fine Liam". I said as I approached the door.

"Open up I want to see you". He said. I breath in a few deep breaths before turning the doorknob.

"Hey". I smiled reassuringly.

"Okay". He said unconvinced. "Marie is back,I thought I should tell you. Why don't you come down so we can eat together". He suggested.