Ethan's Desire.

Seventeen

Venus Cavannaugh.

I couldn't move at all,

I just couldn't say anything, why couldn't I?

Why was he here?

Why didn't he tell me he was coming?

What is he doing here?

How is Ethan going to react?

What could I do?

   I saw Liam clutching Marie and lifting her into his arms and placing little kisses all over her face. His eyes found me, all of a sudden my blood turned cold and my head blank about what to do.
   Suddenly I felt someone shook me by the arm, dumbfounded I turned and saw Zara telling me something which I couldn't make out the words.

I didn't know how long I stood looking or how shocked and pale I looked, I couldn't even make out distinct sounds in the environment. My vision started getting blurry and I woobled a bit before falling and succumbing to the darkness.

I could hear Ethan calling my name as my eyelids closed and welcomed the darkness.

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  My eyes began to open slowly and the light pierced my eyes.

"Oh she's already waking up". I could hear Zara saying as I could make out her voice. Footsteps approached me and I realized that I am on the sofa in my living room. My eyes opened properly to see Zara and Liam at my side, Zara looking worried.

  I looked at Liam for a while before the thought struck me,
"Where's Ethan?". I asked out of the blue surprising both Zara and Liam.

  Liam scoffed lightly before he talked,
"Aren't you glad to see that I am back Venus?". He asked frowning.

"It's not that at all". I put up a fake smile. "I'm just surprised that's all, you never told me that you were coming today. I was caught unaware".

He looked at me suspiciously before answering,
"I wanted to surprise you both, today is Marie's birthday, I had it planned but instead I feel that I'm getting the surprise". He chuckled.

"Where's Marie?". I asked sitting up from the sofa peering up to see them both.

"She's....". Zara started.

"She's asleep". Liam interjected. "And besides it's already dark anyway".

  Surprised I looked outside the window to see that it was already dark. I began to think about Ethan and how he must be feeling right now. We had a deep connection with each other but Liam is back now and he has cut everything off.

  I had a duty to perform as a mother and a wife, it was in the job description and I have to fill in those shoes whether I liked it or not.

  Ethan's face crossed my mind, it wasn't going to be easy forgetting about him at all I realized, I had to get in touch with him to explain everything and I don't know how Liam is going to feel about him.

  I stood up from the chair and stepped forward, entering into Liam's arms, hugging him. He seemed shocked at first but moments later he wounded his arms around me and dug his nose in my hair. He placed a light peck on my cheek as we parted.

"I can't believe that you're home". I said looking up at him.

"I'm here Venus". He said as he gazed into my eyes as he held my face in his hands giving me a smile and then we faced Zara whose expression showed that the situation was awkward to her.

  She clapped her hands breaking us apart,
"It's dark already and I have to get going now. Liam it's good to have you back, welcome once again". She took her bag and left us alone.

He held my hands and pulled me closer to him looking deeply at me.
"Now we're alone". He smiled at me and drew me closer to him and placed his lips on mine.

Tentatively, I began to move my lips against his slowly but on a steady rhythm. I couldn't help but compare his kisses to that of Ethan's.

Ethan's kisses are passionate but Liam's kisses are dominant. He dug his fingers into my hair fisting and pulling it deeply. Once before I was enchanted by Liam's kisses but it feels all too different and unfamiliar.

  Liam was my first and I feel torn right now concerning the spark that we once had, had it been broken or lost? 

We pulled apart from each other, I couldn't bring myself to look into his eyes after what I just felt during the kiss.

Could I have fallen so much in love with Ethan that it could do so much to my relationship and marriage with Liam?

  He cleared his throat after a while,
"Are you hungry?". I asked looking at him.

He smirked, "A bit but if there's any leftover cake I want to have a taste, it is my daughter's birthday after all".

  I left him and entered the spacious kitchen. As soon as I entered, I leaned against the cool walls catching my breath from my encounter with Liam.

'What is happening to me?' I thought.

  I felt like crying so much, I really wanted to make my marriage work but I can't believe that after Liam is back I am feeling this way.

   Before he left I would have given anything for him to stay but now all I am thinking about is Ethan. I felt a tear slip down on my cheek, quickly wiping it away, I took a moment to catch my breath.

  I took in a deep breath and cut out cake for Liam and placed it on a plate. I entered into the living room to see Liam looking around the room wanderingly.

"Are you okay?". I asked as he turned to look at me strangely.

After a while he answered,
"I'm just recalling what the house looks like before I left".

"Oh I made some renovations when you left, you know I said I would". I replied solemnly.

"Ah it looks better". He commended  before taking a seat to taste the cake. "It's taste good".

"Thanks".

  When he was done, I cleaned the place up and we headed upstairs to our room. Nervously, I opened the door for us to enter in.

I thought back to earlier in the day when I had Ethan in this very same room. From behind, I felt Liam hugging me.

"I really missed you". He said into my ear and he placed a gentle kiss on the my neck.

    Deep down, I felt guilty for having forgotten about Liam this time while he has been away. He left me go and entered the bathroom to shower for the night.

What have I done to myself!!!, I thought.