tired is all i feel, but
i really
cannot
rest.
wait-
i really
need your
help.
everyone's
just
leaving,
and
now i'm
scared--
--that you'll
probably
leave
too.
you know what,
it's okay
if you
do.
-
silence
fills
the
hallway.
instead of
goodbye, it could be farewell.
you never know,
but i miss you already.
x
-l
9.24.2018
8:43 p.m.
'important.'
what is important to them that's also important to me?
well, surely there should be something, because i don't think i could vent to them anytime now.
(i make it sound like my mental health isn't important, but i genuinely feel the warmth of loneliness, like how it crawls to my brain like a virus that may cure itself. and now is when i genuinely need someone to talk to, while both my parents are out and about, and my classmates are busy with each other, but it's okay. i have a test in two days.)
(i also make it sound like they're not important, wherein i feel that they deserve importance, and i can't give it to them because i don't know how to, but they're important.)
edit: i still think they're important. 11.3.2019
YOU ARE READING
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