All The Way From Home

chapter 36

Mubaraks pov

I could see how hurt she was when i told her she was just an experiment . If only she knew that I was actually in love with her ,because who wouldn't?

I just couldn't think of a way to make her hate me
I want her to despise me even though I know i wouldn't like it
But some things we do for love..I just have to

It's been an hour and I still didn't check up on her . I decide to do that and start to walk downstairs when i saw Firdaus lying on the floor

Innalilahi waina illaihi rajiun

What have I done ?

I tried to shake her but she still didn't wake up

I hurriedly called the security man to open the gate for me so i could take her to the hospital

On my way there I tried so hard to focus on the road and not get the both of us killed . I can't imagine losing her today , the guilt will haunt me till I die

Thankfully we lived close to the hospital and immediately I got there I called for help while holding her in bridal style

She got rushed into the emergency room and It got to me that I had to call home and tell them what's happening

"Innalilahi waina illaihi rajiun "
Umma kept on repeating this and I could tell that she was also scared

"Yanzu kai ace tasuma tun awa daya ama bakasani ba?  Wannan ai shashanci ne  ( now you're telling me that she fainted for an hour and you didn't know ? That's foolishness )

She was so mad at me but she said she was on her way to the hospital

By the time she arrived , everyone was here . Even Ammi and abbu with helwa

We were all standing impatiently with me pacing and waiting for the doctor to tell us what's going on

The doctor came out as if he read my mind and everyone stood up from their sits

"She's awake and for now she's in a good condition'
He said while looking at me

"She had an intense shock and I suggest you keep her from any distasteful news because it's risky for both her and her baby "

Baby ?
Wait what ?
Firdaus is pregnant ?

I felt so happy about the news but at the same time , I was sad

Rukkayah and halima arrived and they heard the news about the pregnancy

I didn't really pay attention to thier discussion but I could hear them saying things like

"I knew it !" "Iman is going to have a new friend " "wayaga su Firdaus zaazama mama"

The doctor said we could visit and Firdaus's parents gave me the go ahead as her husband but I insisted they go first . I'm the last person she wants to see right now

After Everyone got to see her ,it was finally my turn . I stepped in saying salaam and she answered looking at me then putting her head down

I sat down on the bed close to her and rubbed her stomach lightly

"How are you feeling ?"
I asked even when i knew she might not want to reply me

"I'm fine alhamdullilah "
She answered bluntly

"I'm sorry Firdaus . You dont know how sorry I'm , but I'm doing this for you . I love you Firdaus and if only you knew wh..."

"There's no reason or whatsoever for you to talk to me that way "
She replied so cold and not in the mood for what i was about to say

"We're going to have a baby "
I decide to change the topic

"Yes And i hope its a girl"
She answered

"If you're the mother then i want anyone that Allah blesses us with "
I look at her in the eye but she breaks her stare

"I want it to be a girl because I don't want a boy ending up like his dad "
Her reply hit me so hard I found it painful but I deserved it

Haneef came into the room probably not knowing I was around and I stood up giving them space because I knew i no longer belonged with her

And it hurt me so much ,but what could I do ?

.........

Firdaus's pov

"So how are you feeling now ?"

Haneef asked and I couldn't help but wonder how he was coping with everything that was happening

Me marrying and now being pregnant

"I'm good now , I'm getting better "
I reply with a smile

He smiled back at me

"Firdaus i kind of heard your conversation with Mubarak. I think you should give him a chance , there might be a reason why he's doing all this "

Why is he defending him ?

"Haneef you have no idea how he's been to me "
I say while having flashbacks and I felt my head hurt a little

"I know exactly how he's been . We're rival's remember ? I know he's not very good at times but trust me when i say he loves you so much. So much that he's doing all this for you "

He said , and I couldn't help but wonder how he knew all of that

But Ammi comes in and he says bye to while mouthing "think about it "
Before leaving

.........

It's been a week now since the incident of me fainting and I decided to do exactly what haneef told me

I was trying to act normal ,as if nothing happened
I enjoyed every single baby moments I had with Mubarak that I regretted what i said to him at the hospital

Even tho I'm just 8weeks into my pregnancy , Mubarak already puts his head on my stomach and says he wants to feel his baby

I've been going to the hospital and for the first time today i went with Mubarak for my scanning

I laid down while he was holding my hand with both of our eyes fixated on the screen looking at the baby

I didn't know when i started to cry.
Tears of joy

I could see how happy Mubarak was too
He'd occasionally look at the screen and then look at me in awe

We decided that we didn't want the baby gender disclosed even when it was time

We wanted to keep it a surprise and I loved the idea

It was just a matter of "we" now and I can say that the baby made our bond stronger than it was

He showered me with kisses when we came back saying he was really thankful for me to give him a baby

But I told him we should both be thankful to Allah for blessing us with a child

We later slept off after sharing our excitement. That night , he told me how much he loved me and I believed every single word

I told him i loved him too , because I really did