blinded (mona)

ni

just like that, my reason to live was gone, all within a split second.

it hurt me so much, i couldn't process the information given to me that day.

because of you, i broke everyone and everything around me, i couldn't believe what happened.

my relations all cracked into two, leaving me alone with no one, but you with me.

but now you are gone.

i was angry at myself for not being there when you needed me most.

i was angry at you because of your selflessness.

if only you were more selfish, none of this would have happened.

i wouldn't even be writing this right now, but i am.

letters that will never reach you.

all the days we spent together, all the memories we had, they all didn't seem like much when you were with me.

because we could always make more together, no matter what happened.

but now that you are gone, it all seems so precious.

if only you stayed beside me, not straying off onto a different path.

we could have made more better memories, more important ones.

it seems fate has chosen to go against me this time, and so you are gone.

your spot beside me is empty, but your traces still remain here, untouched.

untouched, just like my feelings for you.

you were like a dream, a dream where i floated on soft, pure white clouds.

But now i woke up from that vivid dream, falling into a new one.

a one with me falling into pitch black thorns, that pierce into me, constantly.

- the boy who has fallen into a nightmare