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Chapter 8 - Pretend

Myrrh's POV

Two days.

I spent two days crying and thinking at my Lolo's rest house.

Pero dahil may mga trabaho akong kailangan gawin at tapusin ay napag-isipan ko na itigil na ang pagmumukmok.

Dahil kapag hindi pa ako umuwi at bumalik sa realidad, Lyn told me that they will be going here and will drag me out.

See how nice my friends?

But right before I step on my condo unit, isang tao na di ko pa gustong makita ang nakatayo sa tapat ng pinto ng condo ko.

It's Renzo.

[It's a good thing it's Renzo, not Drei.]

The voice at the back of my mind say.

I sigh.

Somehow it's true.

Honestly, mas mukhang hindi ko kayang harapin si Drei kung siya man ang nandito ngayon.

"Myrrh...Love." Renzo

I smile bitterly.

"Didn't I told you to stop calling me that?"

"I'm sorry.. But please, let's talk." Renzo

"Ano pa bang pag-uusapan natin? Hindi ba, tapos na sa atin ang lahat? We have no connection at all." Ako

"Myrrh, mahal kita."

"Mahal? Really Renz? You love me and yet you cheated on me?"

"I know I committed a mistake. Myrrh, hindi na mauulit-"

"No. You can do it as long as you want. I don't care."

"Myrrh-"

"Let's stop this Renzo. We're over. Hindi ko na kailangan ng paliwanag mo. Because you know what? The moment you cheated on me, it only means you don't really love me. You didn't care about my feelings at all." Ako

"That's not true."

"And what's the truth Renz? Why? Is it because I didn't give you what you 'want' from me?"

I stressed the word 'want'. You all know what I mean.

"Myrrh, no. I understand that you-"

"Enough Renz. Besides, wala ka na rin namang makukuha. Again, we are over. Excuse me, but I'm a very busy person. Bye." Ako

Mabilis akong pumasok sa loob ng unit ko.

Napabuntong hininga ako bago naupo at nakapikit na sumandal sa sofa.

You're doing good Myrrh. You are brave enough 'cause you manage not to cry. Keep it up. Everything will be fine.

I immediately open my emails to check on everything.

Naitext ko na din ang barkada -except Drei- that I'm already home.

After fixing myself, naghanda na akong umalis.

Good thing wala naman akong gaanong rush na trabaho. Thanks to my reliable secretary for fixing my schedule.

May ilang oras na akong nasa loob ng private office ko nang tumunog ang cellphone ko.

Lyn is calling.

"Yes Lyn? How are you?" Ako

"Now you're asking.. Where are you?"

"At my office."

"Already?"

"Yes."

"Okay. I'll drop by. See you."