Unconditional Love (Book #2)

Chapter 5

~*Drew*~

   "Visiting hours are over Drew." Robyn said taking Jaden out of my arms.

I didn't want to leave but I had to. I grabbed my jacket and said goodbye to Robyn and Jaden. I walked out of the NICU and got on the packed elevator.

When I finally reached my car I quickly got in and sped home. I got in the house and listened to the silence. I walked around the house in the dark and it was still very quiet. I shrugged it off and went upstairs. I opened the door expecting to see Jade there but the bed was empty as it has been for the past month. I don't even know why I got my hopes up every night just to see the same thing.

Jade left in the middle of the night when she got out of the hospital and I been by myself. I have to do everything and its honestly weighing me down. I still have to run our construction company but with Jaden being in the NICU its hard for me to work. He needs someone there to help him get stronger. What makes it really hard is that Jaden needs breast milk to help his immune system and to help him get stronger but Jade isn't here to give that.

I just don't like how she up and left when our son needed her the most. Shit I need her too. I know I said we should separate but it was only a suggestion. I wanted to talk things out and get rid of the tension but she just up and left.

I really do love Jade. She's my wife, lover, friend, baby mama and support system all wrapped in one. I just need for her to come home and handle this situation like a woman.

~*Jade*~

I sat in my hotel room waiting on room service as I pumped this milk. I felt like a damn cow or something but my chest was heavy and this milk had to go. I knew Jaden needed this milk and I was going to the hospital to give it to him in the morning.

I did leave Drew that night and dipped out on everyone but I needed to be alone. I couldn't sit up there when my life was crumbling. I was about to lose my husband and I couldn't see Jaden in an incubator all day and night.

I also could feel what Jaden was going through. Jaden was in pain but he was trying to be strong. He kept telling himself that he had to get better to go home with mommy and daddy. That right there is what really made me leave a month ago. I had the guilt of his early birth and my past weighing heavily on my heart.

Life for me right now was emotionally and physically draining.

~*Layla*~

   "Mama get up. We got to go make breakfast." YaYa said shaking me.

I opened my eyes and looked at my clock. It was 6 in the morning which mean I got about three hours of sleep.

I was on the phone all night talking to Kamel. I loved how deep his voice was and how slow he talked when he was sleepy. I loved the way he said my name and that nasty talk he was talking. Had a bitch like me fantasizing about the multiple positions he could inflict.

   "Mama!" YaYa yelled in my ear.

I stopped the day dreaming and got out of bed. YaYa ran to the bathroom and I followed. We did our morning routine then walked down stairs to the kitchen.

Mama had moved out a long time ago to a bigger house. I wanted to stay here and live on my own. I was fully capable of living on my own with my daughter. Mama only came over to cook for me and YaYa and to visit so other than that the house was usually empty.

Since I had graduated high school a year early I didn't have nothing to do during the day. I could have a job right now or be in college but I was good just staying at home with YaYa and homeschooling her before she went to real school in September.