You Die, I Die

CHAPTER THIRTEEN

CHAPTER THIRTEEN - TRIS

"Why do you always mess things up?" Caleb's voice spat like venom. "You had one job, Beatrice, and all you did was mess it up."

"I– I'm sorry," is all my weak little voice could stammer out.

"Sorry isn't going to cut it! You've put the lives of an entire faction– our old faction, into danger. You've practically killed them all, the blood is on your hands." Caleb face scrunched up into a scowl. I felt the tears streaming down my face, because I knew it was true, I knew it, but couldn't face it yet.

"I tried to tell you, I tried to get to you!" I wheezed, struggling for breath.

"You killed us. You killed them all."

A warm liquid started to ooze down my hands, and I looked to see the dark red blood dripping from my hands. Fear ran through me like a shiver, desperately I looked up to seek comfort in Caleb, but instead I was greeted by the horrors of my parents hanging from the roof by their necks, as their blood dripped from the bullet wound in their heads, and trickled down the side of their faces, staining their grey clothing. My gut squeezed, and all the warnings my mother had given me ran through my mind.

A dripping sound from behind me caused me to turn around, and there was the entire faction. Susan, Marcus, Tobias, and... me. Maybe that was an indication that I betrayed that Abnegation part of me, and let myself indulge in the selfish things, and refused to put others needs before my own. I killed that Abnegation girl, I killed all of them.

My legs ran as far away as I could manage, I ran until a light appeared, and ran as fast I could towards it, sobbing. My eyes burned with tears, and my heart raced with fear. I finally understand what I did, now I have to live with the guilt, and the staining colour of blood on my hands forever.

.......

I jolted awake, chocking on my breath. My cheeks remained wet with tears, and my pillow was soaked. In a hurry I threw my blankets off and stumbled for shoes. Tobias. I have to find Tobias, is the only thought racing through my mind.

My throat was dry, but I didn't care. I needed to get to Tobias. The cold air was harsh on my bare arms, and the darkness surrounded my vision. i hurried from the dorm room, and down the hallway towards the dining hall. I allowed my hand to graze over the stone walls of the cave, guiding me to my destination.

I stumbled up the stairs, and turned down a hallway. The dim blue lights were a faint guide for me to follow. As I turned down the hallway I stopped dead in my tracks. Muffled voices came from a few feet away. I flattened my back against the wall, holding my breath.

"Final testing day is the only chance you can do this." A snake like voice slithered into the air. My blood went cold, I had heard the voice before, I know that voice, but I just can't think of who.

"I understand. When will the deliveries arrive?" A chilling voice replied. This was a voice I knew all to well, this is the voice I faced everyday for the past few months of initiation. This voice belonged to the cruelest man I have ever met. This voice belonged to Eric.

"They will continue to be delivered at normal time, daily." Replies the mysterious voice. I knew it was a women's by the tone and the pitch of it, I could tell that she wasn't from our faction by the way she spoke. Who are you?

"And that suspected, Divergent?" She pressed. I felt my chest tighten, and my breathing stopped, my stomach flipped. A flash back of the morning before the choosing ceremony entered my mind abruptly. The same voice, and that smug smile perched on her perfectly simple face, and the way her perfectly manicured nails clasped together in front of her stomach. And the blue that stuck out so easily, made it clear for me to remember who that voice belonged too.

Jeanine Matthews.

"The divergent is being monitored carefully, we will find out her true identity when the attack is simulated." I could hear my heart beat in my ears, and feel my stomach drop. Tell your brother to research the attack simulation. Are the words my mother spoke. You have to be careful. Are the words Tori spoke. I have not been as cautious as need be.

A slight cough rose in my throat, slipping my lips before I could stop. The voices stopped dead, I clasped my hands over my mouth and flattened myself even further into the wall hearing my heart throb.

"Who is there!?" Eric's voices filled the room, I squeezed my stomach towards my spine. If Eric finds me, I am dead. After the way I acted today, he won't let me go after this. Especially if Tobias isn't there to stop him from being cruel.

"It was probably just a leak from the cave walls," he shrugged it off, and I didn't think to remove from my position until I was sure they had moved on.

The footsteps continued down to a different hallway, and I felt tears burning my eyes. I waited until the footsteps disappeared completely before I even thought about moving towards Tobias. If Jeanine and Eric are planning something together, it will put people endanger.

I left the ragged wall, and quickly, but quietly moved. I turned up some more stairs, and looked around with caution and fear.

As Tobias's apartment came into view I fell into the shadows more, and found my way to his door. I wasn't sure on whether I should knock or not, so I felt my hand close around the door knob. The silent scream of it scratched at my ears as I slowly opened the heavy door. I slipped into the apartment in a swift movement, and turned the lights on.

The lights wear blinding after I had been in the dark for so long. In the light the rooms secrets were all revealed. I could see the papers, and the washing thrown about he room. The blanket that was once neatly folded up, now laid over the strong figure underneath it.

Tobias laid with his arm slung over his eyes, and the other hanging from the couch. He looked so peaceful and soft. We are only just working out this whole 'relationship' that we have gotten ourselves into, but what I do know is I am so grateful for it to be happening. I could look at him everyday of my life, and fall for him over and over again. He is the type of person to drive me mad, and the one to bring me back to sanity. He could take me in his arms, and leaving me feeling like I am floating. Just at the smell of him, I know I am safe. After he saved me from Peter and Al, and on the Ferris wheel. The scent of him calmed me. He was all that I needed right now, and the feeling of simplicity I get from him, is going to drive me crazy.

He began to stir on the couch, and slowly sat up. Tears rolled down my cheeks. His eyes adjusted to he light, and that's when he noticed me, caving in towards that door. My knees gave way beneath me, and I soon felt his strong arms wrapped around me. My tears slipped from my eyes, and I thought about the last hours events. I thought about everything, and all that Tobias did was hold me in his arms, and kiss the top of my head.

This was all I needed right now.