Bus Stop ~ mgc

deserves to be loved

Michael

I woke up as she was getting ready. I guess she ran home quickly to grab clothes. She wasn't being loud but I heard her. I got up and went to the kitchen for a water and her phone was laying out. I know I shouldn't be nosy but I thought it could be that Adam guy. It was the text was from her dad.

dad: We are having a meeting before your class so be ready. You need to know the benefits of the Florida trip and the effects it would leave on our church if you leave for this.

I read it over and over again and I was sort of upset by it. I never get upset but I was. I didn't want to ask her about it because I don't want her to know I snooped around. She walked out of the bathroom putting in her hoop earrings. She had blue jeans, black heels, and a tucked in blue and white stripped dress shirt. Her lips were glossed up. Her curls were out of her face with bobby pins.
"Hey baby I didn't mean to wake you" she softly cooed
"No, I got up alone you weren't loud" she grabbed her phone not questioning me. She kissed my cheek and told me bye but I stopped her. I grabbed her waist and I kissed her and the mint from her toothpaste and the strawberry from her lip gloss was all I tasted. She pulled away from me with a huge smile on her face. I couldn't help but smile back.
"You ruined my lipgloss" She fake pouted and I chuckled.
"I gotta go baby my mom is waiting outside for me"
"Can I walk out with you? I wanted to smoke anyway before I make Ashton pick me up " she looked at me and bit her lip
"Fine yeah" we walked out together and she quickly turned to kiss me before hoping in the green Honda. I lit my cigarette and watched her drive off.

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The whole time I got ready I thought about the text message. I wasn't gonna let it ruin my day but it didn't say when she was leaving or if she was even really going. Ashton picked me up because we have the shop closed down so I guess we are going to go find something to do.

Ashton decided that the studio was the best place for us today. If anyone was wondering we all pitched in to buy this place. All means:
Me
Calum
Ashton
And Luke.

We don't hang out all together much anymore. We are all drop outs but Calum still likes to play soccer and lives on the other side of town, last time I seen him was his party. Luke is working full time with his brother. Ashton and me always see each other obviously. He was in a good mood today so he went on to play the drums. I grabbed a guitar and tried to think of some words to start something here.

Wherever you are.....

I strummed something that sounded nice with the words but it's all I could think of right now. I sat there for so long until Ashton joined me after a while. He strummed with me and sang

can't stop thinking of you wherever you are

We kept repeating it until we changed the subject and talked about stuff until I checked the time and asked him to take me home. I was so anxious only because I was scared of what she would end up telling me about this, if she tells me. I got home and I got a shower and started laundry. I stood in my bathroom doing my hair I caught a glimpse of her dirty clothes from this morning and her toothbrush beside mine. I picked up her clothes threw them in the dirty clothes basket with my own stuff. I noticed her bag beside my bed and the smell of her and cigarettes was apparent all through my house. I sighed to myself because I used to think I'd never even remember her name. Now, I can't seem to forget anything about her. I was snapped out of it by the tiny knocks to my door.

I walked over and opened it for her. Her eyes were noticeably puffy and she looked sad, drowsy. She wrapped her arms around my body and I did the same. We stood there for a moment until she sniffled and walked past me. She set down all her stuff and went to the bathroom. I shut and locked the door and followed her. I stood at the doorway and she unclipped her necklace. She started to unbutton her shirt and I watched her. I walked to the tub and ran hot bath water for her.

She was silent the whole time. She hadn't spoken a word to me yet. She was almost undressed except her bra and underwear. She stood looking in the mirror at herself. Finally, her head dropped and she turned to look at me. I was sitting on the edge of the tub looking right back at her. She walked over to me and her hands cupped my face and she just stared at me. She kissed me so softly for a few minutes. She pulled away and took of her bra. The first words finally left her lips

"Get in with me" she said at almost a whisper and she shimmied out of her panties. I listened to her, despite the fact I just showered. She stood and waited so I guess she wanted me to get in first. My tub was square and pretty decent sized for at least four people. She got in and sat in my lap. She leaned back to turn the water off and then she came back to kiss me. My hands held her hips and after a while I knew what she needed from me. I guess I needed it too. My hands were all over and the gorgeous noises started pouring from her mouth. I put hickeys on her breasts and marks on her back. I got the same thing back, her hands wrapped around my dick and I watched her line herself up and slowly sit herself on me. I watched her and looked at her like she was the most beautiful thing because she is. She rode me so slow with her hands on my chest. The warm water getting splashed around. She had her eyes shut as she slowly went up and down on me. Her mouth open letting the sounds out so I know she feels good. I held her hips and dug my nails into her slightly.

"You're so...good" I let out as I felt myself building. She whimpered and brought one of her hands to her mouth and bit down on her finger. She sped up a bit and I couldn't help but buck my hips up and my hands on her hips automatically slammed her down into me. She took her finger out of her mouth and placed her hand back on me. The water was splashing but that's not my concern right now. She hung her head forward letting out loud moans.

"Michael....... yes there, right there" her soft voice stuttered out. I put my all in to making her cum. She finally fell forward into my chest breathing extremely heavy. Sounds poured from her mouth as I let go inside of her and held her as she came down from her high. We sat there for a moment until she wobbly stood herself up and helped herself off of me and out the tub. I followed and she picked up my shirt from the floor putting it on after she dried off. I slipped my boxers back on and left the bathroom to clean for another night. She sat on her leg at the end of my bed and I watched her play with her hands.

"M-Michael" she called me and her voice cracked.
"Yes?" She kept her head down
"I'm leaving in 3 weeks for two months...." I didn't say anything but it hurt. Something inside of me felt so upset.
"I'm so sorry, please don't think I was using you... I-I wasn't I wouldn't be here if I w-was and I um.... I don't want you to hate me..... please don't think I'm doing this to get away from you, because I wanna be here with you all the time and everyday. Just don't, please don't hate me I'm so sorry" I watched her bring her hands to her face as she sobbed. I quickly grabbed her, picking her up to hold her.

"Don't be sorry it's okay shhh listen baby it's fine. I could never hate you never ever" it wasn't fine. I didn't want her to leave me. I held her until she fell asleep. I laid her down and joined her. I wiped the few tears staining her face and she wrapped her arms around my arm and connected our fingers. I tried so hard to sleep, I really did. 3 weeks. All I had before she was gone for two months. I knew she wouldn't have time for me over there. The hard truth was she is too good to stay around for me. I wasn't meant for this, for her. I'm just here to show her how she deserves be treated. How she deserves to be cared for and about.

Fuck it.

How she deserves to be loved.

I'm an idiot and I've never been in love but I expected this feeling. Breaking me apart and holding me together till she finally ripped from my fingers. A lot can change in two months, it seems so short. She could love it there and find something great there. I could fall right back on my own old routine or I could do something else more important. I knew she was capable of finding something else better. Navi was the diamond in the rough and you don't find those anywhere along the road after the first one. Anyone would say that we could try this distance thing but it would get exhausting. I'll hate myself for thinking nothing will work. I have to let her walk away in three weeks.

I looked at her sleeping so peacefully and I never want her to leave this bed. I never want this feeling gone. I felt like crying, I don't cry. I haven't cried in years, since Calum smacked me in the nose with a soccer ball when I was 17. That was four years ago. She has so much control over me and now she's leaving. Fuck, I hate this.