Jerk | Seventeen S.coups 7️⃣

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01 january 2016

like a robot, her feet brought her to his place. like she was programmed to go there, she didn't think and stop herself from going.

like it was a place which belonged to her, or a place belonged to the both of them.

it's not where you could see fireworks just like what she told eunwoo.

while panting, she looked around the house. it was lit up. there must be people inside.

she rang the doorbell twice and waited outside while her hands were inside her pocket, her hoodie covering her body to warm it up.

the gate was quickly opened, revealing a not so familiar face.

"oh, jinae? jinae-yah! what are you doing outside? come here. you must be freezing." seungyeon carefully dragged her in and closed the gate safely.

there were several people inside. six to be exact. but she was wondering. who are they? only one face seemed familiar.

"seungcheol?" jinae uttered as she recognized him. everyone looked at the two of them, as seungyeon smiled. she felt happy for her brother. "seungcheol!" jinae exclaimed before running towards seungcheol and embraced him.

"i missed you a lot!" she pulled away and looked at him. "i sent you a message. why didn't you reply?"

seungcheol carefully pulled himself away from jinae. he awkwardly smile. "i must not have seen it yet."

"no, you were online. and i saw you've seen it." jinae frowned and suddenly felt her heart heavy.

suddenly, a woman clung unto seungcheol's arm and looked at jinae from toe up to her head. "who is she — lee jinae?"

jinae's eye widened. who is she? how did she know her name?

"ah. i'm dabi. you must be surprised how i knew you." she smiled and continued, "you've seen me before. i always went with seungcheol meeting you and your other friends, remember?"

jinae's eyes narrowed as she studied dabi's face. she's familiar. but jinae's sure dabi's someone she don't want to remember at all.

her eyes went to those arms linking. they looked natural, comfortable.

"i'll go to the washroom for a while, seungcheol." dabi said and seungchol nodded. dabi smiled at jinae before leaving.

"take a seat, jinae. i'll give you a plate of food. i'm sure you haven't eaten yet." seungcheol said.

"uh, no. dont worry. i'm not hungry at all." she must be lying. they haven't eaten their dinner. didn't even have a snack. but luckily, her stomach has not yet complained in front of him.

"i'll go first and —"

"can we talk for a while?" jinae asked. seungyeon heard it despite chatting with their parents. she looked at her brother who tried to leave. it was right for jinae to stop him.

"go ahead, seungcheol. bring her to your room first so you could talk." seungcheol sighed before putting the plates down he was supposed to bring to the sink.

seungcheol calmly closed the door and let jinae sit down.

she felt at home. she felt happy she was there.

how long has it already been since the last time she was there?

"you want juice or coffee? how about tea?" seungcheol asked.

jinae smiled. she was happy he was asking her these things.

"no, i'm good. but thank you." jinae said.

seungcheol sat at the edge of his bed, across the chair where jinae is.

"how are you doing? it's been so long since the last time we talked, right?" jinae said and seungcheol simply nodded.

she felt happy and excited.

he felt nothing. or that's what he believed he was feeling.

jinae looked around and noticed a lot of frames displayed.

photos with her.

so it made her ask him.

"who's danbi?"

he was surprised. it sounded like it was what she really wanted to talk about. "danbi? she was the one you met earlier."

"no. i mean, what is your relationship with her? why is she here? you're celebrating new year with her."

she said calmly but weirdly, seungcheol thought it sounded sad but her face showed nothing. it was blank. you wouldn't know what she was exactly thinking or feeling.

"you even celebrated christmas with her. i saw your photos with her. you didn't even greet me on my birthday which you used to do."

suddenly, she lowered her head. she knew it. she felt there was a tear that was trying to fall. she didnt want him to see her crying.

so naturally, she wiped it away not letting him know she cried.

"she's my girlfriend."

by those simple words, jinae's world stopped. everything came to a halt, even her heart.

she felt her heart was too heavy. it was aching.

she regrets remembering him. she regrets remembering things related to him, even her feelings she still has for him.

"girlfriend? since when?"

"we've been dating for a month now."

jinae breathed in and out deeply. for soem time, she wanted to stop breathing just like how her heart stopped — or that's just how she felt. she cant look at him, but he was staring at her.

he knew it. she was already uncomfortable but what can he do? he missed her. he was suddenly longing for her.

he did not stop himself and just threw himself to her,  he pulled her up, hugging her tight with all his might. he missed her so much. he missed her presence. he missed everything about her.

it felt so right. he didnt mind if he gets caught by his girlfriend. what he just wanted to do was feel her, get close to her again like he used to.

but she was thinking otherwise.

"seungcheol, this isn't right. danbi wouldn't be happy to see you hugging me."

"just... let me do it jinae. allow me to hug you. let's stay like this for a little longer."

"but you have a girlfriend, you idiot." she said as she tried to push him away but he was too strong for her to win against him.

"i missed you a lot, jinae. i missed you." he said as he tightened his arms around her body. he pushed his face closer to the nook between her shoulder and head.

she was honestly happy. she wanted to hug him too but remembering he has a girlfriend, she stopped herself from doing it.

"seungcheol." she uttered but it was no use.

their closeness. in that position. with his face close to her. their bodies and skin touching.

"can't i just keep him forever? i think i love him so much." she realized, and so she didn't stop him what he was doing.

before pulling away, he planted a warm kiss on her neck which gave her body a chilling effect but immediately made her body feel hot.

just one long warm kiss on her neck, had this effect on her.

but now he was kissing her on her lips, making her feel his overflowing love for her. like he longed for her so much. like he didn't want to let go of her, ever.

he held her close, with his arms around her waist and at the back of her head to support her. deepening the kiss, she felt dizzy. she gave up failing to control herself, and so she didn't mind anymore. she gave in and responded to the kiss.

but both of them didn't realize, even her, that she was hurting. a tear dropped from jinae's eye.