Strange Stories (MultiFandom Oneshots)

Golden Loves Ruining Friendships Doesn't He

  I fucked up another friendship aagin, woopdiedoo another vent!

  Not even a strike of midnight and I've already lost the friendship of two people...

  I'm too clingy, too annoying, too arrogant, too opinionated, too factual, too depressed, anything about me can cause people to want to leave me.

  I lost two 'friends' today. One a new transfer like me, and one a childhood friend.

  I was too clingy to my new friend, followed him around because I knew no one else in the school who I can gain confidence in being friends with. He finally got sick of me. Told me to leave him alone. Sure I may sound exasperated, but that's depending how you interpret it. He in a form asked or said to want me to leave him alone. So I left him for the day, wonder how long I'll be trying to stay away from habits to go up to him and say 'hi', hell, even go up to him in general, even with my other friend dragging me with her. But, that's not very likely anymore.

  My other friend I stated some of my opinions. She hates being criticised, those you call a hypocrit. I always at least filter my words, I always feared of loosing someone who seemed to have a sense of knowing me. She never knew me in the first place anyways, just what she imagined like everyone else. She was questioning in the LGBTQ+ community, and I tried helping her out. She ended up ignoring my comments to help her out and started putting the label of being pansexual when she isn't even mature enough to figure out who she is in general. I point out her being an idiot, I didn't child my swears and just '*' it. I tried to go off on how she shouldn't go putting labels already when she is still questioning, but it made her mad so I stopped it quickly. I told her I was going to drink water, I thought of telling her before so I might or might not have drank vodka (which I didn't but it didn't matter she never seemed to have read it) but I did it in hope of her not thinking so much. I was wrong. After saying I was gonna get water I told her 'I can't wait for your not wanting to be friends anymore message see ya!'. And I stebbed out of the tab. My notifications were still on, and the next message I saw I knew there goes any chance of me having friends going away in the depths of my dispair to never be seen again.

  I can't make friends ever in my life can I? I just find I place to attatch and boom someone is forced to deal with my bullshit. This is why I don't ever get to maintain friendship long.

  I'm a terrible friend, a terrible girlfriend, a terribe person, a terribble daughter. I can't do anyting write anymore. All I can manage to do right it doing everything wrong and having it blow up in your face.

  If I was ever happy, it's a mask. I'm never truly happy anymore. If I smile, you're most likely to have an automatic masked one than a real one. But, in all terms they are real.

  I don't want to do anything anymore, I want to leave, to rest, to go to the one place I could as if it was the day I can.

  I fail at everything I hsve ever done, and the only thing I have truly accomplished, was to be so fearful to where I am too much of a coward to even bother to gain enough strength to peirce my skin with any sharp object on purpose.

I just want to sleep...

forever...