I did it 4 Him

Chapter 30

I sat in the park silently, thinking. Every couple of minuets I looked around for some eight of Justin. I sighed and crossed my ankles. I took out my phone.

R u almost here???

I hit send and looked around again.

"Dy!", I heard a cheery voice call. I looked to see Carlos coming closer... ughhhh!

"Hey Carlos", I said looking around. Justin hadn't replied yet. I looked down at the high tops Kendall bought me before we left for Virginia. They were already wearing out. But you did have to add in that I basically wore them every day since I got them.

"Are yo okay?", Carlos said sitting next to me. Before answering him, I texted Justin again

Hello?? R u coming or not??

I hit sen then looked at Carlos.

"I guess. I was suposed to meet Justin here a half an hour ago", I said letting out another sigh.

"Oh", he said,"what are you guys even meeting for? I thought you and Kendall were hanging out this afternoon?"

"You know when we went toto the carnival, and I ran off crying?", I asked as he nodded,"I was crying because Justin gave me a stuffed animal that looked exactly like taco. He doesn't know that Taco is gone. Kendall indited that I tell Justin, and he sounds very serious when he say it too."

"Ohh, okay", he said starting to get up.I grabbed his arm and pulled him back on the bench.

"Will you satyr here until Justin comes? I don't really feel safe without someone here", I said as he nodded.

"We wouldn't want you hurt, now would we Dilan?", he said I smiled. He only used my full name when he was trying to lighten the mood.

"We would not", I said as we just started talking. I checked my phone, still no reply. Carlos kept me entertained though, he is such a good friend.

I am about to break down and cry. Carlos and I have been sitting here for about three hours. I called Justin twice and texted him like fourteen more times. All with no reply.

"I think we should go back to the Palm Woods", Carlos said as I nodded, not wanting to speak. Carlos took my hand and pulled me off the bench into a hug. He squeezed me, like he was trying to get the hurt out.

"Carlos, I'm fine. Come one..... I don't want Kendall to have a seizure since I have been gone for so long", I said as Carlos chuckled. We started back towards the Palm Woods.

"Are you sure that your okay?", Carlos said.

"For now. I think I just need Kendall, a movie, and a quarter pounder", I said as we kept walking.

Minuets later, Carlos and I got off the elevator. He hugged me one more time.

"Stay strong, for me", he said as I nodded. We went our separate ways, him into his apartment. Then me into mine. I opened the door as I saw Kendall just about fly off the couch.

"Dy! Are you okay? What took you so long?", he said freaking out a little.

"Oh I was just talking to Carlos.... a lot", I said trying not to look in Kendall's eyes.

"What? Carlos? What happened to talking to Justin?", he said as he started too look mad.

"About that. I haven't told Justin yet", I started,"it's just he..."

"Let me guess! He just looked at you with those big brown eyes. You were caught speechless, not wanting to break his heart. So you made up some little.... thing so that he would leave. Really Dilan?", Kendall said sounding surprisingly jealous.

"That's not it at all Kendall!", I said as he gave me a shocked look.

"It isn't? Don't lie to me Dilan. You like Justin more then me. Admit it!", he said raising his voice.

"I'm not lying to you Kendall! Justin and I are nothing compared to you and mme. Justin is one of my best guy friends who I haven't dated besides Carlos!", I said starting tto raise my own voice.

"I don't believe you", he said crossing his arms.

"Tell me why, why don't you believe me Kendall!", I yelled.

"Your not looking me in the eyes", was all that he said. I was dumbfounded.

"Not looking you in the eyes! I know you know that if I did I would start crying. I know for a......", I said as I saw him shake his head. That takes it. I looked at him, long and hard into his green eyes. Then tthe tears started to flow,"HAPPY? I looked you in the God damned eyes! Now do you believe me?" He shrugged.

"I don't know....", he said as I just stared him down letting my tears fall at full blast.

"Fine", I said going into my room. I grabbed his duffle. (since he hadn't really unpacked) I went back to him, duffle in hand, and shoved it over to him.

"You don't believe me eh?", I said now just pissed off,"then get out. We are over Kendall Knight. If you cant trust me on a serious topic like that, then I can't be.with you." He looked shocked. I stared at him. I could feel that my eyes were almost a neon blue from all the crying.

"What?", he said, holdingbhis duffle like an idiot.

"GET OUT!", I yelled, throwing the door open. He started to it, looking sad.

"Dy, I didn't mean....", he started.

"Just GO Kendall", I said as he walked out the door. I slaked it behind him. Then I locked the door, ran to my bedroom, and locked that door. Without changing, I threw myself onto my bed. I kept crying into my pillows. I though he was the one. I was wrong. Then simple as that, I turned the light out and cried myself to sleep.

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Oh my God guys I am like crying my eyes out! I really have nothing to say. I'll try and post again tomorrow or Sunday or....... soon. I'll just say soon. So I'll be here crying.... Kendall is on too much shock to be saying anything. Thanks for reading and see you guys later..... bi.