Sirius Blacks Daughter

Chapter 14

It's been about a week since I hit Oliver. I woke up around seven this morning, showered, put on some makeup and curled my hair. I wasn't doing this for anyone but myself. For some reason I just felt so confident and indestructible. I looked amazing and by the time breakfast was over I had gotten several compliments. But Cedric Diggory came and sat by me this morning. He was being weird, he kept telling me that "I've changed". I couldn't believe it, I'm finally focusing on myself for once and its not okay. I told Cedric to come talk to me later. Maybe after I explained everything he'd understand.

For charms class me and Cedric sat together, because the only other open seat was by Oliver. Unfortunately Remus was covering for Professor Flitwick today. I knew he was trying to get me to look at him during class, but I was so hurt by him I couldn't.. After class Cedric said we should go for a walk. So together we went over to the astronomy tower and sat down. Eventually Ced made eye contact with me and asked "what's been going on with you lately?"

I'm not going to lie that was a pretty annoying question. "Cedric I haven't had a good day since I got to Hogwarts this year, I've been in the hospital wing, can't sleep, hardly eat, had a boyfriend, got cheated on, had a godfather, got pushed away, became friends with harry, now I hate Harry. Cedric I do not want to live like this, wondering what's going to happen next, I was scared to be happy because I knew it wouldn't last long. And to top it off I think I'm seeing things." I was so mad. I'm sure Cedric could tell.

"Listen Riley," he began "you do not need to change yourself just to be happy or whatever, okay? Oliver is dumb to ever give up a girl like you. Stop trying to become this person who your not Ry, it's not worth it. Trust me."

I stood up and walked away, but then suddenly whipped around "you know what Cedric, that's pretty easy to say considering your life is pretty perfect." And with that I stormed back to the common room. I have literally pushed away all the people I want most in my life, what the hell is happening to me.