The most pain

Alone again

"Alone again"

I give up I can't take it anymore. No more betrayal please! It hurts! To the point where I just can't go on without thinking about it in some way or another. Every time I see you or think about you it's hurts deep in my bones. All that scar tissue is reopened and you just cut it even deeper than before. The pain is more than I can bare, I've been through so much and all you can think about is you. Did it ever occur to you that I choose you because I trusted you that you could take care of me if I needed help in my roller coaster life style. I've been to hell and back twice and you didn't even bother to ask me if I was doing fine. You would rather sit back and avoid confrontation from another persons life. You never called me despite our circumstances in life. You never even tried to be an encouragement like you used to be. You didn't even write me a letter saying how much you missed me. You used to be special, you used to be the most amazing person Id ever met. And to think that you started lying to me at an early stage when I was most vulnerable. I was weak, searching for someone to replace the love that was taken from me. You lied to me and sold it as truth. I was hurt when I came to you, I was looking for a promise to keep me safe, I was looking for a friend. But what did I get? A knife in the chest? A bullet in the heart? What does it matter the damage is done. So thank you for breaking the last broken piece of my heart and throwing it away, I didn't need it anyway it was already broken. There's nothing left there now I have no more love left to give except for those who stayed with me In hell and burned at the stake as I did. Even still the pain will always be great and harsh for those trying to recover such as I. Thank you for teaching another valuable lesson you've helped me but only this once. Maybe I'll be more careful in choosing my loved ones in the future. I leave you now to think on these things so that you know that I feel broken and betrayed.