host family II ; jack gilinsky

ten

luna's pov

it's been about four months since i've seen or talked to jack. it's been hard seeing him post all of his maternity picture with madison but i try to scroll past.

i can't keep looking in the past, thinking about the could've been's, or the should've been's.

he hasn't tried to contact me since the day he left & neither have i. for good reason.

i have nothing left to say nor do i want to see his face. i replay the moment he told me she was pregnant in my head almost every moment of everyday.

it's hard to erase the feeling i had inside my stomach & the shattering of my heart.

but i just push through & try to forget i was even in love with jack, or that i still am.

"hey baby." i hear danny say as he walks through the front door.

i reply back with a hey as he walks over to place a kiss on my forehead.

"how was your day?" he asks as he sets his keys down & takes off his jacket.

"very unproductive, i haven't moved off this spot on the couch all day," i say as he lets out a chuckle, "well besides to pee."

"that's my girl." he announces as he heads to our bedroom.

danny helped a lot when the whole chaotic mess went down with jack. he knew how hurt i was & how much i needed someone to be there for me.

& he was my person.

somewhere along the way i realized my feelings for him & decided it was time to try out something new.

i wouldn't necessarily consider him my 'rebound' although it looks that way. he's been a dear friend for as long as i can remember & no matter what happens in our relationship it will always stay that way.

jacks pov

i think about luna every single day of my life. i feel so empty, so confused without her here.

she's impacted my life in a way no one else ever has. i'm excited to have a baby but i'm completely not ready.

i feel like i'm trapped in the inside of a tornado, my whole life is spinning out of control, but there's nothing i can do to stop it.

madison is always pushing me to do things with her & forcing things down my throat just because my baby is inside of her.

her anger & bitchiness has gotten so much worse since being pregnant.

i have to plaster a fake smile on my face every time i'm with her or her family. i can't remember the last time it was genuine.

i feel as though i have to be with her even though i know i don't. i just don't want her to think i don't want this baby even if i don't want her.

i'm in such a complicated situation & i feel like every choice i make is going to be a wrong one.

luna would know what to do. she would be giving me the best advice right now. she always did know how to give a mean pep talk.

god i miss her.

i miss everything about her. i miss her voice, her hair, her lips, her eyes, the list could go on forever.

but i messed everything up. there's no way in hell she would ever take me back. even if i got on my knees & begged.

it hurts being so far from her, & not knowing what's going on in her life.

i don't look at her social media because it's too painful to see pictures of her happy, even though that's all i ever want for her.

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wassup party people

y'all aren't even ready for what i have planned for this book

i hope you missed me bc i'm back