Utterless (2020 collection)

More than friends, less than lovers

I met this guy not so long ago.
He was standing next to me.
The thought of having a conversation with you had never come to my mind.
But then you ask for my name.
I think I am being hypnotize.
Out of nowhere, I let you know my name which I never did to anyone,
not to a stranger like you.
I feel excited whenever you texted me.
I feel alive whenever I hear your voice on the other line.
I'm always looking forward to spending my time with you.
I feel comfortable in your arms.
Dear, have I ever told you that you are the first man I introduce to my parents?

I like your smile; those two wonderful little deep things in your cheeks made my day.
I like how you look; the more I stare at you, the more I get crazy over you.
That very moment, I'm sure!
My whole being is destructed by your presence.
If this is love, only time will tell.
I trusted this feeling, not because I love you nor I like you.
But because there's a voice inside my head sayin' I should try.
Love is not blind; people are.
We were blinded by signs; never forget that 'signs' are only signs.
Do not assume, unless he confesses, if not;
You'll only get hurt.

Prisoned by assumptions.
Locked in the wilderness of love.
I looked at the sky.
There are no stars just like us, there's no assurance.
I looked at the water.
But I can't see my reflection because it was tainted with mud.
You have shown me the world.
Whether it's a world full of lie or,
a world with a little glimpse of truth.
I could not determine it but one thing I'm certain;
In every truth, there is always a lie.

I remember I asked if this is love.
But time can't tell it anymore.
The watch has been broken.
It can't be fixed;
no matter how we wish to turn back time—we can't.
I don't know how we ended up like this.
You were so close to me yet; you are so far.
Showing care does not mean I'm special.
Calling me doesn't mean you missed me.
Do not blame me for changing my personality.
I used to be sweet as sugars;
You made me like this,
a girl filled with bitterness.
I cannot trust a guy who knows nothing but to cause tooth decay.
I tried to comprehend the context of my feelings.
I don't know which is more fatuous;
Falling in love or,
falling out of love.
I wasn't sure about my feelings, so was this guy.
Let's see who'll win this game.
We are the creator of this game.
But only one wins, I can't bear to lose.
I was asking myself why I even played your game.

I didn't ask for a boy; what I want is a man.
A man who will share the same goal with me.
A man who will inspire me to work harder.
A man who will lift me from the dark side of my bed.
A man who will smile for me even if I didn't ask for it.
You were that man I'm talking about.
But I'm not sure if I am your woman or,
Maybe, you belong to someone else.

What exactly are we?
I think we should stop.
We shouldn't have written a song about us,
If we don't have the intention to sing it.
If I were to describe this thing between us
Probably we are...

"We are more than friends, less than lovers."