That's Not Her

17. Thor doesn't save his plaent Asgard

Maia's point of view.

Everything that has happened since Alec arrival finally caught up on me. I groaned as I saw my face in mirror. My eyes were puffy and swollen. All the stress and hangover was here to take it's toll. And then it happened to top everything off. I started on my period. Cramps and nausea was so bad that I decided to take the day off.

"Maia, Are you ready?" Jace peeked in and saw me curled up in bed. I was close to crying again in pain.

"I am not going today."

"What's wrong? Why are you in bed?" he kneeled next to me.

"Started on my days. Need to die." I said covering my face with comforter.

"Do you want me to stay? I can get you some medicine." I was taken back. This was the first time he showed so much concern. He usually went on saying good luck dying.

"No. You have a match coming up. I'll be fine. I always am."

"Alright. Call me if you need anything. I'll ask Livia to come here after school."

"Hey What's going on between you and liv?"

"Nothing." He shrugged and walked towards door. Ah it's a sensitive subject then.

"Maia?"

"Yeah?"

"What Alec did last night was unnecessarily cruel. I'll talk to him" I don;t think I can take more than one surprises this morning.

"Don't. It's fine. I am mostly over it."

"Did crying last night helped?"

"How about I don't ask about Liv and you don't ask about this?" I snapped. I am used to him not bothering in my business, and in this case I don't want that to change. He looked at me with pity and then left the room quietly.

After and hour I started looking for my medicine but the bottle was empty. Damn it. I thought about calling Livia and ask her to come here but she didn't picked up. I suddenly remembered she had a biology test today. I thought about calling Jace but decided against it. Alec and Parker weren't an option. Finally I asked Andrew who promised me to be here with medicine in less than half hour.

Then my phone rang. I expected it to be Livia but it was Mark. I took a deep breath and picked it up.

"Hello"

"Maia? You picked up?"

"I did" God this was painful.

"How are you?" He asked poliety. It so weird to talk to him like a stranger.

"Can't complain. How are you? How's Macy?" I cringed at the venom in my tone. There was no response from the other side.

"I am sorry" We both said together.

"No I am. It not my place to ask. Especially that way."

"Of course it your place Maia. It always will be." He said it so honestly and sweetly and tears I was trying to control spilled. Call it period hormones but I've cried for mark in two days more than I've cried in four months.

"I- umm I don't know what to say. I am sorry to make this awkward. Especially because of my actions recently."

"What's wrong Maia? You sound really upset. I know you and Shane started after us. And if he is who you want then I suppose I can learn to be happy for you."

"Shane was a mistake. I've been making a lot of mistakes lately."

"Does one of those mistake is you breaking my heart?" I could hear hope in his voice under the fake amusement.

"No. It was the only right decision I ever made." At this he laughed drly. I think he might be silently crying as well.

"How right that decision can be if it ruined my life?" This question made me snap.

"Your life isn't ruined mark. you are barely 18 you have whole life ahead of you and I would've-" I stopped. Damn it my agenda to help him move on was almost over. I don't want his sympathies I want his hate, his disgust. I finally realized my strategy towards the whole Mark thing had been wrong. He wasn't giving up. I hope to lay it on him gently till he saw how wrong I was for him but he was more stubborn that I thought. Truth is I've been trying to spare myself way more than him. Well it was time for some sacrifices to be made.

"You would've what?" He asked.

"I would've been stuck with you." I made sure my voice was cold and empty. "I felt suffocated with you just as you felt frustrated with me. so trust me I did both of us a favor." Well that was almost true. 

"Suffocated? frustrated? Maia What are you talking about? Just tell me I can fix it. I swear we can." He pleaded just as the door bell rang.

"I have to go. My date is here to pick me up." I lied and hung up.

I sat back staring at my phone waiting it to ring but it didn't only the door bell rang again. I smiled when I saw Andrew standing not only with medicine but also a big box from my favorite bakery.

"You are a life saver." I gave him a bear hug as soon as he put the box in kitchen.

"I know. I've been compared to angel about three time but who's counting?" He grinned.

The cake was black forest for which I kissed him on cheek.

"You know If I still had my virginity I would've given it to you for this cake." I joked.

"hmm perhaps you can make it up for it another way."

"Anything."

"Tell me Why you've been crying? and don't say it's pain cause I know you wouldn't cry that much because of it, you would've punched something to transfer the pain." If he knew how sensitive the self harm topic is for me he never would've joked about it.

"It's just umm" I thought about it and decided to tell him the truth. I was sick of lying. "I just talked to Mark. After 4 months and lets just say it wasn't exactly pleasant."

"You want to talk about it?" I shook my head.

"Ok. How about we eat this cake watch some superhero movie?" I knew how much he hated super hero movies but for me he would watch it.

"Sounds good. We can watch Thor Ragnarok. It's basically a comedy so you won't be bored."

Halfway through movie I finally gathered the courage and asked him what I wanted to ask since he got here.

"Drew?"

"Hmm?" He was getting sleepy already I ran my hand through his hair and he smiled like a puppy snuggling closer to me.

"How is Parker? Is everything fine between him and Shane?" He opened his eyes and smiled at me sadly.

"Let's just watch movie for now. Those thing will still be there after Thor saves his planet Asgard."

"I didn't mean for any of it to happen. I swear."

"I know Baby. I know." he kissed my forehead trying to comfort me.

"Drew?' I said again shaking him.

"What?" He sounded so cute, sleepy and frustrated all the at the same time.

"Thor doesn't save his planet Asgard."

"Then why are we even watching this shit? Hell I am sleeping. Don't wake me up again" he said tucking his head between my shoulder and neck.

"Drew what happened to the guy you meet in that concert?"

"He wanted me to be honest with everyone and I am just not ready for that. I don't blame him." he looked so sad my heart broke for him.

"You know whenever you want to tell everyone I'll support you."

"It's my fight Maia I have to do it myself. I just wish everyone was as supportive as you."

"I love you Drew. Every version of you."

"I love you too. Now will you let me sleep?"He said grumpily I rolled my eyes and turned the TV off. Watching him made me sleepy too.