If Only

C H A P T E R 11

ACHE AND TORMENT

RAVEN

Her breathing was ragged and her lips trembling.

I planted a kiss at the base of her neck and inhaled her scent, "I'm sorry."

"Raven... you don't... you won't want to do this..."

Releasing her hair from the hairband, I feathered her cheeks with kisses. "You don't know how much I do..."

I claimed her lips again and silenced her pleas. Goose flesh erupted in the places I touched. At this point, I could feel her body responding. My palms found her nipples and stimulated the soft buds. Her body arched in response and when her lips parted as she moaned, I took the chance and dove in. Her tongue tasted like mint as I sucked on it.

"Ra-aav..." she tried to speak but failed.

My right hand traveled down, touching and caressing her skin as if trying to imprint my fingers at every inch of her. Left hand continuing on her nip, I was rewarded by the hardening of the sensitive flesh. "You feel so good, babe..."

"You will regret this..." she said.

"The only thing I regret was leaving you here on your own," I kissed her neck and planted a hickey on the area above her right clavicle. "You don't know how much I wanted to take you that first night."

Reaching its destination, my fingers tugged on the waistband and pushed her panty down on one side. I licked the valley of her chest and then captured a hard nipple, licked and let go.

"Was this part of your revenge?"

I forgot about everything else, all I could think of was her in this moment, "I know I shouldn't...you've hurt us so much."

"I never intended to hurt anyone..." a hand wiping off the perspiration rolling the side of my face, she begged me to understand, "I never meant to cause you pain."

"It's been done," I watched her face fell and her sadness took over, I said, "I know I shouldn't but I do. Despite everything, I–"

I love you, Miranda.

I stopped the incriminating words from escaping by kissing her and in fear of her asking again and lest I could no longer contain it, I didn't utter another word about the argument of settling scores between our families.

Fondling one and the sucking on the other, I showered her perfect bust with affection, "Mine... all mine..."

Giving her a loud kiss on the lips before easing my weight off of her, I could see her brown eyes widened in anticipation as I removed my shirt. I was not totally naked as my sleeveless undershirt stayed on. I wanted to fully undress but I don't want her to be afraid or even feel grossed out of my scarred body.

Her lips were puffy raw and red from the kisses. It made me want to taste them again. I unbuckled my belt, unfastened my jeans and removed it as well.

In my boxers, I resumed my position on top of her, "I can't recall wanting anyone as much as I want you."

Skin to skin, it felt wonderful but incomplete as I was still covered.

"Raa–" Miranda gasped as my hand found its way down and inside her panty covered slit.

Her lower lips were slick but not thoroughly drenched as I ran my hand over it. I could feel her clit below my palm as I cupped her mound. "I have to get you ready, babe."

Biting on her lips to stop her moans, her gorgeous brown eyes fixed on mine but they closed when I put a finger in between her folds, soft and wet.