Journals | Shaylor

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Jack Johnson came over to me as he grasped my waist and hugged me.

"You didn't text me all yesterday!" he said holding onto my wrists.

Shawn came out. Awkward because Jack and I were leaning close to each other.

"OH! Jack. This is Shawn!" I tried to introduce.

"Hey Shawn. You seem really familiar." Jack said, observing his face carefully.

"Sorry, I don't know but umm sometimes I come to school to pick up my stuff and leave." He said shyly.

"Speaking of that Shawn! So what's up? You know what you're doing today?" I asked really urgent. I wanted him here.

"I won't be here today." he said slowly. "SHAWN WHAT?" I yelled hitting him.

"I'LL BE HERE THE REST OF THE SCHOOL YEAR!" he said with a soft tone at first then really excited. I was about to hug him but end up giving him an awkward high five fist pump.

"That's great Shawn. You can hang out with us!" Jack said in a caring tone.

We all huddled for a group hug.

"But hey, I they told me to come back in five minutes, which is kinda now so... See you guys later! I think it'll take long so don't wait for me. Tay, I'll text you when I get to first period, if I do even go on time." He said really exited then sarcastically. I love that.

"Hey can I use your phone to call the other Jack?" Johnson asked.

I nodded. I turned around to see Shawn pulling more papers out his bag through the transparent window glass.

"THE FUCK TAYLOR?" Johnson yelled at me. It was sorta rude, yet like a joke.

"What?!" I said worried.

He gave me my phone back.

My wallpaper was Shawn, shirtless.

I guess I didn't check my phone earlier to realize he had done that.

So I looked at my messages and I was right, he did send the cuddling pictures to himself.

"I did not do this!" I shrieked at Johnson.

"Right." He said calmly.

"Let's see what else he did." I told him as we leaned against the lockers.

I went to my photo album and there were a bunch of pictures of Shawn smiling.

Some serious faces in model expressions, there were some of his arms and body with an innocent smile, most of all there was pictures of him doing peace signs.

Peace signs.

Shawn's facial expressions were the cutest in his peace sign photos.

"Hey you're like fucking uncontrollably smiling. Stop." Johnson joked, punching my shoulder.

"You like him don't you? " he asked.

If it wasn't obvious, you could say I was gaining a small crush.

There's no male figure in my life so I started growing gay. It was when I started middle school, that's when I lost the most amount friends. Whenever one of the guys would leave, I'd observe them. Seeing what I did wrong, noticing how they've changed. Thats how I've grown to like guys more than girls.

I don't think I ever fell for a guy. Like, I've had crushes here and there. I've found attractions towards guys. But I've never liked a guy to the point where I wanted to be with them 24/7.

Weird right? How could I like guys when I've never actually liked a guy.

It's the way I feel around them. I feel happier with guys than girls.

That's when I snapped out.

"You don't have to answer me but I thought we were cool." Johnson said.

"Okay, I do. He slept over last night." I admit to him as Jack clapped like that London Tipton girl.

"I woke up with him around me." I commented putting my arm over Jack.

"You've never actually liked a guy have you Taylor?" I nodded to Jack's question.

"I'm proud of you!" Jack said as he wrapped his open arm around my waist.

"Proud of what?" Gilinksky came out of a corner. Walking with my left arm over Johnson, as his left arm clenched to my waist did seen suspicious. Jealousy.

"Oh hey." Jack whimpered. "He brought a friend over and now they'll be hanging out with us more."

Gilinksky just put two thumbs up.

The bell rang and we all flood off.

I text Shawn, "I know what your classes are but don't know the order. Let me know your schedule later! :)"

Of course he agreed and then I headed to first period which I had with Matt and Carter. I decided to sit near them today.

"Guys." I told them.

"Hey Taylor thanks for helping us the other day." Carter said.

"We're still friends. Well even if you guys don't think so, you are still my friend even though we don't have time for each other anymore." I took my backpack off.

"Really thoughtful of you cuuutaaieey." Matt joked. We made a video like that before. It brought memories.

"So speaking of friendship, I have a friend. Who is new you could say, and yeah. Thought you guys could say hi to him." I said fixing my bandana.

"Well why not! Oohie." Carter commented really stoked.

My plan worked. Gather all the boys and probably start something new with them all. The way we used to be.

Shawn walked in a little round twenty minutes into the class.

"Hey Shawn! You're attending school now?" the first period teacher said.

He nodded and smiled. "Good to be back."

"So were just working on class assignments. I already went over the lesson. I'll sit you with our umm.." she started to whisper, "the scholar students."

Although she said quietly, you could still hear her. Well I sat in the front with Matt and Carter so it was easy to eavesdrop whenever she was talking to students or on a call.

Shawn came over to us.

It was a square layout. I sat next to Matt, with Carter across him. Leaving Shawn sitting across me.

"So Carter, Matt... This is who I was talking about. It's Shawn." I explained.

"So, already talking about me to others?" Shawn smirked, making me blush.

Carter and Matthew looked at me like they knew something was up.

"Hi. Matt." "Hey, I'm Carter." both of them introduces them selves.

"Great so lunch, can we all hang?" I asked all of them in our little square.

They all agreed. Carter helped Shawn with the work while Matt helped me.

I waited for lunch.