Journals | Shaylor

T w e n t y

Walking into the glass doors, you would be confronted with circular couches. Behind it was a cool swirly stair. The left was the kitchen and even though there's a large couch in the middle of the house, there would still be more lounge spots in the other corners of this house.

His house was much larger than mines. I felt kind of embarrassed that he ever saw mines. "Yeah it gets lonely in here sometimes." he speaks up.

I just observe the house in the center, looking at the twinkly lights above and seeing the amazing view outside.

"You can come to my room."

I was all excited about his living room but wow his actual bedroom is indescribable.

The bed caught my eye.

He had music notes circling his room. He had an arch that lead to his bathroom and closer area. But next to that arch was his television set. It was a simple room, yet far too classy. He had a magnificent view of blurry city lights. And his bed, if you lay on it, there's a circular piece that lands above his bed and through that, you could see stars. Did I mention he had a circular king sized bed?!

This will be the greatest sleepover.

"There's snacks and whatever in my kitchen." he mentioned.

"Well is anyone home? I don't want to awkwardly scramble through your kitchen alone." I honestly told him.

"No silly. My kitchen is on the other side of my room, just walk through the arch and you should be encountered with the mini kitchen on your right!" he infered.

This boy got me going crazy. I walked there and just grabbed simple snacks.

Muffins and apples.

I plopped my body next to him on his bed. It was really wobbly and cold. "Water bed Tay." he shared. "Ooh." Damn I was excited to sleep with him. I mean like, sleep next to him you know?

I wonder if I will be his first time.

Jack Johnson and I almost did something, I don't think it counts.

"Taylor! Stop thinking about what I would do to Shawn and start actually enjoying his company! Now." I argued in my mind.

"Shawn. When will I ever hear you sing?" I finally started a conversation besides having dirty thoughts.

"One day, you'll soon see."

"Shawn. That will be never. I understand. You don't have to sing for me."

He threw away my garbage that I had left on his nightstand. "Sorry Shawn."

Shawn came back with a note pad, sitting across me. "What you doing Shawn?" I asked as he put his fingers to his lips like it was a big secret.

I didn't do much besides have the tv on and on my phone but what distracted me was that Shawn kept circling his room.

Around eleven he finally turned off his lights. Just when I thought, yes I can have him by my side now, he end up turning on these small twinkling lights that absorbed in the ceiling. "Shawn. You know it's a school night." I commented anxiously.

"Don't worry about what's going on."

I tried to rest my eyes. Before I knew it, Shawn actually sat besides me. He didn't touch me at all. I really wanted it but tried not to force anything.

It was 11:58 pm and Shawn started walking out of bed pulling the sheets off me. He walked over to his guitar and took a kneel while I sat up on the bed wrapped with the blanket around my back.

He slowly starts strumming and connected his sight with mines.

I love his teeth.

Oh his hair, how I love his hair.

His face...

He's so perfect, and I just want him in my bed to tonight.

Taylor Caniff, will you be my boyfriend?

Oh I love you so...

You can't have him cause he's all mine oh

Bam, it's Taylor Caniff.

His head rocked to the beat, his eyes shut strumming with passion until he stopped. "Oh and that's only if you say yes." He continued to strum. "You're all mine would be false until you say yes." More strumming and he stopped again, "Did you even listen to the lyrics?"

"Yes Shawn Mendes. Yes." I said passionately as he giggled. That signature giggle where his head head with drop down as he smiles to the ground. "Yes to what question?" he asks. "Yes I heard the lyrics." He looked at me straightly. "Taylor Michael Caniff! Don't make me cuss you out! There was a question in that song which was pretty much the main idea." he said with a 'what the fuck' face like the time someone called him out on not knowing what an enchilada was.

My mind wondered off... what did he ask? Hmm all I noticed was 'I want him in my bed.' Oh wait he asked me if I would be my boyfriend. "Shawn sing it again."

"No. My offer will be over soon." He commented then giggled, "because I know what you're doing."

"SHAWN PETER RAUL MENDES YES I WILL BE YOUR BOYFRIEND!" I yelled as loud as I could over to him until I felt his body push off to the ground.

"Whoops sorry Shawn I'm really happy." I commented as I lifted his hand and the guitar.

I pat a spot on the bed. "Now lets cuddle, boyfriend."

Thursday morning with Shawn in my arms. "You know, just a week ago, all you did was nod your head and now you're in my arms." I said to him and kissed his forehead.

We started our morning with the bus, as usual. But this time was different than most. I accidentally budged into someone. It was the lady from last week.

"Wow one exact week later dear!" Irene Rene exclaimed. "What happened to you Taylor! Saying you didn't know this boy." she said nudging her head towards Shawn.

"Right! About that, he umm.. I uh..." she put her ear closer to me. "I want to ask him to dinner later." I whispered.

She bowed down her head and walked away. Before she did, she turned around and whispered, "I knew it."

"She knew what?" Shawn asks as he puts his hand down to mines.

"I guess she figured that we would be together." I smiled.