for ever alone

chapter 7(edited)

Lucifer's p. O. V
My parents new sophera went missing They don't know we beat her and I mated and rejected her with in 2 hours.
4 weeks 4 days and 17 hours with out her is like hell. I just want her back in my arms cuddling up to be seeing her face why did I fuck it up !

The pack house has turned to shit always messy , ordering take out because not one off us can cook well sin can she tought him how to do everything but he refuse to talk or be near use let alone cook for us.

He doesn't come out off his room unless he eats and your lucky if he does. I didn't see everything she did for us She loved sin like a son tought him everything he knows she kept us all on a budge and we always went past it and spent what we want on what we want and she had to sort out how to pay the bills.
She cleaned did the washing drying and ironing everything she did everything for everyone and not one off us ever thanked her for it.
She was far from weak, we beat her every day while she did everything man, I can't remember the last time I sore her eating a meal and that's bad because as alpha I have to look after everyone but I didn't look after the one person made for me!
" Lucifer we have checked everywhere man nothing it's like she was even alive"
My 2nd in cam and josh said making me furious.
" WELL FUCKING FIND HER "
Standing up from desk banging my hands down
" We can't she has covered every sence trail and clue man it's like she disappeared"
Fuck what the fuck have I done
" WELL FUCKING FIND HER OR FIND YOU SLEEP DEAD, GET OUT "
Sitting down with my head in my hands. What have I done drove our fucking mate away that's what you have done and Ill will never forgive you for everything you did to her
hunter roars at me bearing his teeth blocking me out again.

He hasn't spoken to me since she left man I need her back with me where she bolongs. Pictureing her with another man infuriated me
well she wouldn't be off you accepted the right full Luna
hunter pops up to go back to the corner he's been in since she left.

Walking out my office I go to sins room. Finding him not there I panic please no not you as well. I can bearly live with Sophera here never mind if I lost Sin as well not like I deserve any off them.

Running around House for a hour checking everywhere but the basement where we kept sophera.
Opening the wooden door I Slowly start taking steps down to where I see him led on her bed crying into the sheet we gave her as a blanket
"Sin"
I whispered so quietly that if you wasn't a wolf you wouldn't off heard me but know he heard
" Come on bud we will go back to your room"
Sitting on bed he looks at me with pure sadness knowing he lost without her.
"I can't the only thing I have left is her neckless, I need her Lucifer she was my mum"
Hearing them words come from his mouth hurts putting  his head in my chest holding him close
" I know bud I'm trying my hardest to find her and when she get back I promise I'll fix this"
Nodding I he raps his arms around me, he doesn't know that we are mates and we mated an god help me when he finds out
" I remember when she was playing hide and seek with me and she was look for a hour but I refused to loose so I stayed where I was hiding an she started to panick screaming my name so I jump out off my hiding place scarying the shit out off her, she slaps my arms multiple times shouting at me for scarying her then worring her so much but we ending up laughing our ass off till she was crying holding her ribs with me. I miss her so much"
He looks up at me with tears on his face and a sad smile remembering the person who everyone loves I start to laugh whilst trying hold back my tears mowing I couldn't brake in front of him
" She was so strong always tried showing me she wasnt hurting and fine she always put me first, waking me up in morning bribing me with anything to go to school" Laughing because even I know he's a little shit to get up for school.
" One time she attacked me become I wouldn't get up she jumped on My bed tickling me to death I thought I was goi n to  pee, she said she will draw me a picture if I went. I loves her drawing I got one every week"
Not being able to hold back the tears I start Crying with him knowing she truely was the strongest women iv ever met
"I miss her to bud come on you can show me her drawings"
He nodded an I followed him to his room where he showed me the drawing an Fuck she was good but there was one caught my eye it stood out amongst the rest off the art.
It was a eye but the pupils was a girls crying but the face was smiling looking happy reminding me of her.
Every time I looked into her eyes you could see how broken and dead in side she was but I turned a blind eye, I carried on hurting her knowing she was slowly dying slowly giving up on life. I drove the person iv loved my whole life away !
" Do you mind if I take this"
Looking at sin hoping he would say yah, he nodding his head
" That one reminds me off her, she smiled laughed with me but deep down in side she was crying out to be loved to be held to be cared for"
Taking the picture I see everything he is say and it hurt it hurts so fucking bad. I should off stopped it !
"Come on bud bed time for  school tomorrow "
Looking at me with sad eye he nods bowing it another day without being bribed by Sophera or seeing her
" Okey keep the drawing I have her neckless you can have that "
Looking down to his neck I see her chain her mum and dad got her for her birthday a year before they died. Alex wanted her to take it off because he thought she didn't deserve anything from them but she refused and got a hefty beating it. Shaking my head getting rid off the horrible memorys I Nodwalking out door before I broke down in front off my little brother.

I went to my room lying on my bed look at the drawing think about her thinking off her smile , god her smile could make the devil change his ways, her laugh don't get me started it the best sound iv ever heard it's a real bubbly gut laugh making you roll over with laughter it's contagious. Smiling remembering my Sophera I felt my eye get heavy an soon I was drifting off. Dreaming off her everything about her. I don't deserve her !