Brallon~ Raised By Wolves

Is Tyler Okay?

A/N this whole chapter talks about depression, suicidal thoughts and cutting please don't read if you know it could trigger something, be careful, love you all.

~Tuesday~

I walk into class, Josh sat alone, he was also tapping his fingers nervously on the desk. I take a seat behind him in my normal spot.

"You okay?" I ask with concern. Josh just shrugs in response.

"That's not very helpful," Josh turns around, looks like he didn't get a lot of sleep.

"What's wrong?"

"Tyler, last night he kept me up, I'm so damn worried," Josh's voice turns into a whisper, his eyes begin to get watery.

Concern falls all over my face, is he okay? What happened with Tyler?

"Did... did something bad happen between you two?" Josh shakes his head no.

"T-Tyler- h-he," Josh's bursts out with tears, he covers his face, I walk over to Tyler's seat and pull him into a hug.

"It's okay, talk to me Josh," I whisper to him, I rub circles on his back.

"T-Tyler, he-he... he wants to d-die! He told me he's b-been cutting, my precious boy h-harms h-himself at night, h-he k-keeps talking a-about someone named Blurry Face and I'm so damn worried, I only got two hours of sleep! D-Dallon, what if he killed himself?! Right after I stopped talking- how would I f-forgive m-myself! I love him so-so much, I-I," Josh stops rambling, he was shaking.

Tyler reminds me of the old me. In grade eight nine and ten, I use to cut, I'd tell myself I'm ugly, I'm fat, I'm a disgrace, a waste of space. I stopped cutting because I don't even deserve to hurt myself. Now a days I ignore all my thoughts, I rather keep them to myself then spill them to anyone and have people call me a freak for cutting.

"God D-Dallon, I-I love him, so much, he's so beautiful, he's not ugly- h-he, he's everything he thinks he's not!" The bell rings, class should start in two minutes.

"How about you go get yourself clean up? Maybe text Tyler," he nods and scurries off.

I sit in my normal desk, so many thoughts run through my mind.

What if Tyler kills himself? God I miss Brendon- not the time to think about your new boyfriend- but he's- Shut up thoughts, god I'm so selfish, if Tyler dies I don't know what I'd do, I love him, he's that special friend not everyone has, and Josh, poor Josh loves Tyler with all his heart. What would happen if Tyler lost to himself? Would Josh kill himself too?! Then both of my friend I love would be gone, my parents are never home, all I would have is Brendon, but Brendon couldn't replace them. What would I do to myself?

Now it was my turn. My breathing quickens, my vision gets blurry.

Shit class started and I didn't even notice.

Tears quietly roll down my cheeks, I wipe them away.

God Dallon, such a fucking crybaby, how could one love you?!

No, shut up, don't think about your stupid thoughts, you'll just cry more!

I should've never came to school- from the beginning, if I didn't know English I could be locked away, why don't I just go mute? If one of my friends die the other might die and then I'd be with Brendon. Lucky ass Brendon doesn't have to worry about these things, he's fucking raised by wolves.

"Dallon are you okay?" I can hear myself now, I hear my sobs echo through the classroom, I shake my head no.

I need Brendon, I want Brendon, I want to know Tyler and Josh are okay.

"M-May I-I go to, t-the office?" I choke out, the teacher nods and lets me out, I gather all my stuff and head out, I walk to the office and head straight to Mrs. Jave's office, I knock on the door.

She opens it, I see Brendon, he smiles for a split second but frowns.

"Dallon are you okay?!"

"C-Can I-I be a-alone with Brendon?" She nods and leaves the room, I close the door and walk over to Brendon, I take a seat and he whimpers.

Brendon sits on my lap and faces me, he bends down and hugs me tightly, I hug back and cry, I wish I could tell him what's going on...

"I love you Brendon, please don't ever leave me," I whisper, I begin repeating it over and over. I'm so fucking pathetic , I should just die, who would care, who would remember me?

"I love you," he whispers back.

The tears continue to fall, I hug Brendon as tight as I can, I'm not letting him go until I feel better...

~Legit an hour later~

I've stopped crying, they aloud Brendon and I to sit in the office and do nothing, so here we are now, Brendon is sitting on my lap facing me while playing with my hair.

He runs his hands through my hair and giggles. I smile up at him, wrap my arms around his waist and pull him closer, he's so adorable.

Brendon attempts to braid my hair and of course, fails. We sit in a peaceful silence, Brendon's tongue pokes out as he works on my hair, a smile is still on my lips.

"You're so cute Bren," I blurt out, he giggles, Brendon leans down and kisses my forehead. Okay then.

Buzz, buzz, buzz.

My phone starts buzzing, I grab it and check the notifications, it's Josh.

JishwaDuN: Tyler is sad...

DalPalWeaks: ....

JishwaDuN: I'm with him, he has dark bags under his eyes, he wants you to know he says hi and is 'okay' but clearly he is not okay

DalPalWeaks: :( I'm in the office with Bren.

JishwaDuN: nice, I gtg making Tyler some food, sadly I have to force feed him... he refuses to eat...

DalPalWeaks: tell Tyler I said hi, bye Josh

I turn off my phone and sigh, my smile was gone and Brendon stopped playing with my hair, he pouts and looks down at me.

Brendon lifts my chin and attaches our lips, we share a slow kiss, he pulls away, Brendon looks really concern.

"Are you okay?" He whispers.

I shrug.

"I.. I don't know."

A/N okay ya'll I actually have writers block, I had an idea for the next chapter and now I don't like I'm like, stab me plz, ps sorry for making a sad chapter :(