Letters To My Soldier Boy Lover

Letter 34

Dear Jonas
I know you won't write back neither would you give a damn. And I'm quite aware that in the last letter I said I won't write back to you and all that stuff. Now I decided I would write back. It doesn't matter to me if you don't reply or read this. All I really need is to write out my thoughts. Also, I'll just remember you as the nice guy. Not the annoying things you've done.

Ahem, not writing back after my confession.

Anyways back to business.

My parents are enlisting. For food. Money. Safety.

It's all for us.

I know I should understand but I can't and I'm being selfish for them to not go. Why do they both have to go? I figured out the answer.

They love each other. Getting more money and food supplies was just an excuse for one of them to go with whoever volunteered first. They love each other and I know they love Molly and I as well but they love each other a lot as well. They've been through a lot together and not to mention adults understand each other better than kids. Vice versa.

Obviously my parents thought I was clueless obviously about how enlisting to the army worked. You send in a letter ahead of time before you enlist. It's not like how they just accepted everyone back in the old days where they just take your word for the things they ask. Now they want proof.

So guess what happened.

I intercepted their letters and sent mine instead.

I'm willing to make that sacrifice.

I turned eighteen by the way.

For the three of them to live happily I'll do it. Whatever it takes to keep this family together.

They don't know.

I wonder how I'll break the news to them.

On Monday.

Monday.

For now it's family quality time.

From Ava