Lust and Lies

Letter 1

Kurtis (Noah's dad) Pov

I tried to fall asleep, I couldn't. This hurt worse then the last time. The doctors said I only had a few months, we didn't tell the kids that. Marla has been putting on a fake face for me and the kids. I knew she would break at some point. I slowly opened my eyes and saw Noah on the couch. He had headphones in and his eyes were closed. I saw a few tears running down his cheeks. Jerrah and Marla were at the cafeteria supposedly but I knew they were probably outside balling. I knew they were scared, hell they're more scared then I am. It comes to a point in your life when you don't care what happens. I've lived my life and I've lived one damn good one. I knew they these were signs for me to leave. God has made this path for me, I'm in this hospital for a reason. I knew it would break my family, Marla would start drinking again and Jerrah would get into drugs. She thought we didn't know but I did. The entire time. I didn't want that to happen. Noah, poor Noah. He was struggling as it is I mean the messed around with Courtney behind Kristen's back. I knew that too. He was trying to hide it but I have a strong intuition. I knew what these kids were doing. I feel for Kristen though, she must have been out though hell but I hope they turn out okay.

I closed my eyes when I heard Noah get up. He came near me and grabbed my hand. I heard him sniffle a little. Then I heard him whisper.

"I love you dad. I know we haven't always gotten along but I love you. A lot. So do me and this family a favor and stay the hell alive."

With that I heard him get up and leave the room. After the coast was clear I grabbed my bag and pulled out a pen and paper.

Dear Jerrah,

I know we haven't always seen eye to eye especially with that Nick. I always loved you and always will. After I'm gone you need to stay away from the drugs. Please. You need to take care of your mother. She needs you. Without you she would be lost. I need you to stay strong and do this, for me. I also need you to rethink what you're doing with Noah. I know what happened and that's a sin. You need to stay away from that. It brings bad energy. I know you're just trying to hide the facts you haven't come to terms with. I see how you look at Jayla. Don't get me wrong I'm a little mad but you do what you need to make yourself happy. That's all I've ever wanted with you. I know I won't be here to guide you and your mom wouldn't understand. Jayla is a nice girl and deep down I know you love her. I truly believe that girl is your soulmate. I suggest you give that a try. I will be watching as you walk down the isle, your brother filling in for me to your beautiful fiancé. Take the money in this and buy a beautiful ring (or dress) when the time comes. Darling I love you so dearly. Now wipe up those tears and go get your women.

Sincerely, dad.