Lust and Lies

Messages

It was around 11 AM when I fully woke up. I walked to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. Who was I? Why was I doing this to the people I loved the most? Was I a monster? I turned the knob to the left and got in the shower after it warmed up. I couldn't help wanting Richard to be in with me. I was staring to love him and starting to hate myself. My body craved for his touch. My ears craved for his voice. My eyes craved for his smile. I wanted him. All of him. He gave me something Noah didn't. After a few minutes I got out and again looked in the mirror. Hickeys from our first time together were all over my neck. I carefully covered them with makeup and walked to my parents room. I laid on the bed naked and wet with my hair in a towel. I turned on Netflix and watched Jane The Virgin for a few minutes then I heard my phone go off. I picked up my phone and nothing. I looked around. Next to me was a phone halfway under a pillow. It was Noah's phone, he must have forgotten it this morning. He had a text.

One message from: Courtney 😍

Court- meet me in the girls locker room before lunch I'll be quick 💦

I was immediately freaked out. Was Noah cheating on me? I started to read other messages. The only messages was from yesterday around the time he was going to bed. The rest were deleted.

Noah- babe I miss you
Court- you're at Kristen's house spend time with her. We will see each other at school tomorrow Kristen isn't gonna be there so we good.
Noah- okay well when are we gonna tell her?
Court- idk she's going through something I can tell. Maybe we shouldn't now.
Noah- but I don't want to hurt her by keeping it on for so long.
Court- well it's been six months what's one more?
Noah- you're right
Court- baby I miss you. I want you here eating me 🤤👅
Noah- tomorrow at school baby girl. Goodnight I love you
Court- I love you too 💞

I felt a tear run down my cheek. My best friend for seven years was dating my boyfriend. Granted I did cheat on him, he cheated on me first. I never suspected a thing, though Courtney hanging with us all the time was probably her making sure we didn't do anything together. And the reason me and Noah hadn't done anything in a few months was because he was doing her. I was mad. So mad. He would come over after school to get his phone so I could have him walk in on me and Rich, but then again he could tell my mom. I wiped my tears and went to the kitchen and poured myself a bowl of cereal then watched tv in the bedroom. I then heard a knock at the door.