Lust and Lies

Letter 4

Kurtis' pov

Kristen was pregnant. I didn't know whether to be mad or sad. I wouldn't get to meet this baby. I wouldn't. I wasn't going to but I decided to write another letter, to Kristen.

Dear Kristen,

When you and Noah first started dating I'll be honest I didn't like you very much. I thought you weren't good for him, I remember him talking about you hours on end and wouldn't stop. He admires you though so I had to push away my feelings for his. Little did I know you were the greatest thing that happened to him. I truly loved you together. When the split happened because of him and Courtney and Rich and you, yeah I know about that. His world completely broke. He didn't say a thing to us but sometimes I'd hear him crying in the shower when he thinks no one can hear. Protect him. That boy loves you to death. I know this because he reminds me of myself. You remind me a lot of Marla. The beauty and intelligence. You guys really are remarkable. I think Noah and you will last. I hope it does. You're pregnant, when you came over to talk to me I wanted to open my eyes and watch your face. It would've been so funny. I want your baby to know I love him or her. I will be it's guardian angel. I want you to take whatever is going on around you and brush it off. Put yourself first. You and your baby need this.  I'm giving you this debt card, on it is some money the paper attached has all the information. Use it to buy a home, or an apartment. Your college is paid for and so is the babies. I want you to love the life you deserve. Buy an apartment, pay your car bills on your own, have this baby, and love the hell out of your life because you only get one. Love you Kristen. Stay strong.

Sincerely, Kurtis

I wasn't going to pretend to sleep anymore because all the letters were done. I think I should write three more but my hand is starting to hurt. I grabbed a small book from my bag and started reading. After about an hour Kristen woke up and slowly got off the couch being careful to not wake Noah. She smiled gently and sat next to me.

"How'd you sleep?" She asked
"I didn't." I think I could hear her heart drop
"Did you hear?"
"Yes." I said smiling big

She leaned in to give me a hug.

"I know it's early but do you have any names?"
"Anastasia for a girl and for a boy I'm not sure yet. But that's just what I'm thinking I don't know what Noah would like."
"Anastasia is a beautiful name." I said with a smile.
"I just hope I'm not like my mom." She said referring to the many miscarriages before Vivian.
"You just need to pray, or get tested."

She nodded her head as Jerrah, Jayla, and Marla walked in the room. You could tell Marla had been crying. He gave was red and blotchy. Jerrah kisses me on the forehead and sat on the other couch with Jayla. They did their homework and listened to music. Marla sat in the chair Kristen was just in and held my hand. She didn't say anything. She just watched around us. Minutes later the doctor walked in.