Untamable

Ep.23

Seok doesn't talk to me on the way to class, and i am thankful that he doesn't.

Too much is happening right now for me to have to go through another argument with him, especially in public.

We go in through the back door to avoid as much attention as possible.

Like always, I sit in the back of the room, in the corner by the window. He sits to the right of me.

More students shuffle in, some stopping and staring at us for a while, then turning to there friends and whispering.

I already know what they are talking about and I fold my hands in my lap and look at them.

I can feel anger boiling in my blood, and i sigh, praying that Seok doesn't go off.

"Settle down." Our teacher calls out. The students partially listen, finding their seats and gossiping more quietly.

"An Jeon?" "Here!" Attendance starts. He goes through the list of names and calls them out loud one by one, waiting for a response in between.

Thanks to alphabetical order, me and Seok get called back to back, "Kim Seokyeon, and miss Nani." He sighs and looks at us.

"We're here sir." Seok answers. Our teacher nods, and doesn't take his eyes off me for a few seconds.

He sighs and shakes his head as if he is disappointed and continues with roll.

My heart breaks and i am found disappointed in myself. I get up from my seat, grab my purse and run out.

I can hear shuffling as i run by the other students. I don't bother to shut the door behind me as i enter the hall.

I know that Seok is probably going to follow me, so i urge myself to run faster. I want to be alone and think by myself, without the interrupting of his feelings.

I keep one hand over my small belly as i run. How am i supposed to go through two more weeks of this? I can't even one day.

I run past a few late students on their way to class. Each one stares at me, knowing exactly who i am.

Why does everyone seem to look down on me for being pregnant?

Im an adult at least. I do understand that i have the case and everything, but they think i did it to gain sympathy from others, which i didn't.

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I end up at the park down the street from the school. The same one i met Cagh at. The same one where me and Seok really started talking.

I sigh and look around at everything surrounding me. The playground, the trees. Even the preoccupied pedestrians.

It feels nice to be on my own and have my own thoughts.

Do i miss Seok?

Do i feel bad for leaving him at school?

Yes.

But for the first time in months i feel like im my own person again.

Taking a deep breath i can feel a second set of emotions. He sits beside me on the bench, silently. I sigh and don't face him.

"What do you want?" I pet the creature that now sits by me, another one of my mysticals.

"I just thought you could use a friend."

I laugh at the word. Yeah sure we're friends.

"Seok is worried," he sighs, "He even called me." I have the strongest urge to roll my eyes and be sassy and I'm not sure why.

"I haven't been gone for 10 minutes." I run a hand through my hair.

"Nani what's gotten into you? Why are you so cold all of the sudden? Wasn't it you that defended me against my brother?"

My eyes fall down to my lap for a few short moments before i look up at the kids playing on the playground.

"One day mine and Seoks kids are going to be playing at this park... Go to our schools and ride these buses."

"Okay? And?" Kenny kind of laughs at me having no clue as to what my point is.

"And they're going to be told about how their grandpa was abusive. How their mother was a criminal and their poor father got stuck with her."

"Nani-" "I hate this town," my eyes water, "Everyone knows too much about me and my family."

He only nods in agreement.

"Too much happened in the last 3 years... Things that no one should have to experience." I finally turn my head to face him, "I'm just exhausted from not being normal."