There was goodbye in your eyes. You've refused me, again. And your silence hurts more than what I feel as the earth grows colder once again. I am dimly aware another year has gone by, and I'm no stranger to the leaves that grow beautifully familiar each passing day. My footsteps, gradually become more defined, sure of their direction. It's all I've ever wanted. My youth only gets younger, and today's mind thinks it knows everything. For the wheels to start spinning, trudging their way out of the steep mud they've been stuck in for far too long, it seems I may have to cut my way through the growth that has encircled its way around this newborn soil. I have to tear my mind off of anything that reminds me of you. Rip at the beautiful thoughts that have occupied me for the better of a year. I know I am more than this. I see it in the way eyes dance whenever I'm around. I've felt it in the way other girls have treated me all my life. I feel it in the way you stare at me when you think I'm not looking. I don't think I have to remind you that you only have me for a short time longer anyway. You are one of the only people I know who truly understand time. Forever, is not a word I use lightly. It's too far away, and I just don't see the use. But somewhere in forever, you have always been my muse.
