zach

chapter 6

***back to Sasha's POV***

After practicing I went backstage and got super high. I don't know why but that song always makes me really sad and hungry for drugs. After I took some oxy I went back out and Zach was clapping and saying I was great.

"Hey." he said "Um, are you okay?"

I kept tripping and laughing so I know he knew something was up, I just brushed it off and told him we should hangout, he said sure and we went back to my place afterwards.

As we walked in the door I poured myself some vodka and drank up. He kept asking if I was okay and he looked so worried about me it broke my heart. I said yes and asked why he kept asking, he said it was because I was acting weird and stuff.

I sat down next to him on my bed and asked him to play questions with me, he said sure so I started.

"Why did you look so jealous of that guy at the party?" I asked, I knew I shouldn't have been so straightforward but I was high so what do u expect?

He looked sort of surprised but then answered it with a, "I was jealous to be honest." I asked "Why?" and he said "I don't know I just really wanted to get to know you."

I asked him to ask the next question and he asked, "Why were you staring at me when you were all up that other guy?"

I honestly didn't know what to say, I didn't know if I should've been flirty or confused or I don't know. I said, "Because you were staring at me what do you expect?" I know it sounds kind of mean but I was high and I just didn't know what the hell to do.

His face made me sad because I couldn't read it. I asked him why he showed up at my practice today and he said that he wanted to check the band out.

He asked me something I didn't expect him to ask me, he asked me why I ran off that night. I told him I already explained but he wouldn't believe me, so I made up an excuse and told him it was because my grandma was sick and I needed to visit her. I doubt he believed that either.

He asked me why I drank so much. I was pretty caught of guard, but I told him because then I wouldn't have to think. He frowned and gave me a hug which was so unexpected, he told me things would get better and I had no idea what he meant. it got kind of awkward and I asked him if he wanted food and he denied it. I knew in that moment that I loved him, I loved him more than anything and I needed him from then on out.