zach

chapter 8

***ZACHS POV***

I kept knocking on Ashley's door but nobody would respond. I knew she was home because her car was parked outside her apartment building.

"ASHLEY!!!" I yelled, I was getting pretty worried, especially after Jesse told me about her so called 'problems.' I walked in because the door was unlocked which I thought was weird. I called her name and saw her in the bathroom, passed out, with a bottle of pills in her hand.

I freaked out. I started screaming her name and trying to wake her up. I started crying for fuck sake. I've never felt like this before, I felt like if she died most of me would've gone along with her. She woke up and told me to calm down and that she was only trying to sleep. That's when I completely lost my chill, I screamed and cried and yelled at her until she cried. I felt really bad so I took her into bed and comforted her. I asked her why she did this to herself and she cried even more. I waited until she fell asleep and left. I wanted to stay, I really did. I just couldn't see her in so much pain, I went home and talked to Mikey about it and he told me that she's a great girl and she definitely needs help. I don't know why but I just started sobbing in front of him. He asked me what was wrong and I told him that I really cared about her and I never felt pain like this for another persons problems.

The next day Lux called me up and said I needed to hurry to Ashley's place, I panicked and got there as soon as I could, only to find her lying there with a hot spoon next to her, shooting up heroine.

"GOD DAMN IT ASHLEY WHAT THE FUCK?" I exclaimed I was seriously so worried about her and it didn't help that I was madly in love either.

Lux explained to me about her issues and I kept asking what they were but she said she couldn't say, I got really upset but I couldn't leave her there so Lux left Ashley and I alone. Once Lux left I had a panic attack and cried as I wrapped Ashley in my arms, stroking her beautiful brown hair with little knots and tangles. God she was so beautiful, even the way her long fingers fell in my hand was just perfect.

She woke up and asked me what had happened. I told her about the heroine and she apologized and said I was so much better without her and that I should leave. I objected right away, there was no fucking way I was leaving her.

That night we had sex for the first time.