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Chapter 13!!!LUX POV

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***LUX POV***

I can't believe Ashley and Zach saw Matty fucking me in rehab, I thought to myself. The look on their faces was priceless, I started cracking up, I couldn't take this shit seriously. I felt really bad because I never told anyone about my drug problem, I feel like I should explain how it all started because I never told anyone that part either.

Ashley and I were at a party one night, as usual, and Ashley sat down with a group of guys and had them stick a needle in her arm, I asked her what she was doing, I had done just about every drug in the book just not the ones with needles.

"Lux don't tell me you've never shot up?" She said, she looked at me with disbelief and said, "come here and I'll load you up, trust me it's great."

"Okay, but what is it?" I asked, I always liked to know what I was trying before I did it.

"Heroin." She smiled, she always talked about it and said she would have me try it some day at a party.

I sat down next to her and she heated the spoon and stuck a needle in my arm, she whispered in my ear and said, "Have fun." I floated into oblivion and it was probably the best feeling I've ever experienced. I felt like I was floating and nothing could bring me down. When I woke up Ashley was still past out next to me, I had a guy load me up again and when Ashley woke me up she was laughing,

"Now Lux did you load up again?" she said with a giggle, "I told you it felt good now didn't I?"

"Yeah, I regret not trying it sooner."

"Be careful with it though, you don't want to be addicted trust me, don't end up like my crack head of a mother."

"Yeah okay." I said, I didn't know I would end up in rehab because of it. After that night I pretty much shot up every chance I got.

Matty and I were like Bonnie and Clyde. We did everything together, especially when it came to drugs. Matty was more interested in coke than dope, he was always so hyper and jittery and had left over powder on his nose. I loved Matty so much it was scary, I couldn't live without him.

One night Matty came over to my apartment and he was in one of his rages, too much snow can do that to you.

"LUX, LUX ANSWER THE FUCKING DOOR!" He screamed.

"God damn it Matty what the fuck happened to you?"

"I-I need you Lux!" He cried

"Matty you need to tell me what happened." I was so worried about him, I was always worried about him.

"Tell me you love me Lux." He kept pleading, "Please tell me you love me."

"Matty you know I love you, ok come inside and lay in my bed okay? You'll be fine, let me take care of you."

"Lux don't you understand, nobody can take care of me, and nobody will ever be able to care for me." He looked so pained and angry and it broke my heart. I couldn't keep myself from crying so I dragged him inside and gave him a hug that lasted a lifetime. He cried in my shoulder and I kissed every inch of his neck.

"Matty, I take care of you, and I love you more than I've ever loved anything." I was trying to keep him from sobbing, I tucked him in my bed and cuddled with him until he fell asleep.

I couldn't fall asleep because I just kept thinking of how many problems my boyfriend had, it was so fucking sad. I woke him up with little kisses and took off his shirt, he asked me what I was doing and I said, "I want you to know how much I love you." He moaned as I caressed his body and left a trail of kisses going down to his crotch. I pulled his dick out and put it in me and went slow because I know he was sad. I made my way up and bit his lip, he said I was gorgeous and I just laid down and hugged him. I couldn't stand seeing him upset, I really couldn't.