zach

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***ZACHS POV***

I don't really know what's going on with anything, I'm not depressed because of Ashley, I don't know how I feel. I'm a little but mad to tell you the truth. Why does she get to disappear with no questions asked? Why is she the one that gets pitied and sympathy? She's a big girl and she can handle her own fucking problems. I'm not trashing her or anything, I love her, I just don't understand why things work out the way they do. I looked down to find my phone buzzing with Lux's face on it.
"Hey Lux what's up?" I asked.

"Hey so they found Ash's body somewhere in south LA." Lux said, her voice wasn't as urgent as it once was when these things happened.

"Well is she dead?" I asked praying to god that it wasn't the answer I thought it would be.

"Nah just OD and beaten up, she'll be fine I just think maybe we should visit her if you're up for it."

"Ok yeah, I'm on my way right now." I declared, hanging up the phone. What the fuck is wrong with Ashley? I'm getting really frustrated with her. I mean this is the third time she's overdosed in two months. I stepped into the hospital and walked to her room with anger rushing through my veins.

"What the fuck Ashley?" I yelled, I was sick and tired of her bullshit.

"What." She just said in her sarcastic voice, her eyes gleaming mischievous and powerful.

"You fucking bitch!" I screamed.

"Woah who got your fucking panties in a knot?" She asked with that same smart ass tone, clearly not taking anything I was saying seriously. I ran up to her and grabbed her by her neck, feeling her eyes widen as I whispered in her ear.

"Fuck you. You fucking asshole running around doing shit you know pisses me off. Why can't you just stop?! What is this Ashley a cry for fucking attention?! YOU'RE ALL THAT I HAVE AND YOU FUCKING THREW THAT AWAY! WE COULD'VE BEEN SO MUCH MORE THAN JUST A COUPLE OF JUNKIES TRYING TO SAVE EACH OTHER, KNOWING IT WASN'T POSSIBLE." I was on a roll, I was throwing my feelings all over the place, left and right up and down, I couldn't handle this anymore. She looked into my soul and said something I don't think I'll ever forget.

"You chose to leave, not me." She said with a sick smile spread across her face.