zach

chapter 10

"Hey." Zach whispered in my ear. I was so glad I woke up next to him, it was probably the happiest I've been in a long time.

"Hey." I said back, as he stroked my hair with his calloused fingers.

He kissed my neck and I told him I loved him back, he smiled goofily and said we needed to talk. I got really worried and wondered if he wanted to end this or something but instead he started talking about my eating disorder.

"I knew you had a problem when I felt your hipbones at the dance, they were unusually noticeable but I didn't think anything of it."

"Listen Zach if you're gonna judge me or anything you should understand how it all started in the first place." I say, I really didn't want him thinking of me as a train wreck even if I was.

"Ashley, I'm not judging you at all, if I was being critical about this I wouldn't have started crying and yelling at you."

I stayed quiet, I really didn't want to talk about it but I didn't want him to leave me either.

"Well what then?" I said, "You're gonna make me tell you and then leave me? Are you just curious about the fucked up girl who won't tell you any of her problems?"

I was getting pretty upset. I didn't know why, I was just really worried, I always got heated whenever people made me talk about my issues.

"Ashley don't be a bitch about this you need to tell me what the fuck is wrong!"

I could tell Zach was mad and worried. His big brown eyes had tears welling up in them. I couldn't take him being sad, especially about me.

"Ok fine, my dad used to abuse me ok?" He was the only person other than Lux and Sasha I had ever told. "He'd starve me for days and then beat the shit out of me, and the worst part is my mom would just stand there and watch. Not even a tear in her eye, no emotion what so ever." I started crying, I always cry when I tell this story. It brings back so many dark memories I tried so hard to forget.

Zachs face was drained of all happiness. His eyes sunk and all the the color in them faded.

"I'm gonna kill him." is all he said. "I'm gonna fucking murder that bastard."

"Zach what do you mean?" I asked. I was concerned about him because he actually looked like he was ready to kill. He glanced up at me and his face went soft, he hugged me for at least 4 minutes, kissing every single inch of my head, making his way to my lips.

"Ashley, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry a human being did that to you, especially your own father." I was trying to be strong but all I wanted to do was stay in his arms all day.

"Zach I feel like your blaming yourself, I didn't even know you when all of this happened, you're okay trust me. You're probably the best thing that's ever happened to me." I said with a smile. It was really hard to express my feelings, but whenever I did it was something most people didn't forget.

"Is there anything else you need to tell me?" He asked with pain in his eyes. I didn't want to see him suffer even more, so I lied and said no.