does anyone actually even read these?
I don't know what to say.
I'd love to say that I'm alright being left alone.
But I can't say that when I see you forgetting I exist
Forgetting that I'm alive and still need you
Because it hurts.
Loneliness is a low ache that just sits in my chest
While yours is light with laughter.
Because everyone is gathered.
While I sit alone.
And I understand if there's something that made you pause
Made you hesitate
Before asking me to join in.
I understand
If you're sick of me.
I am too, don't worry.
But I'd give anything to say
That jealousy and lonliness aren't raging a war inside me
As you figure things out
And smile
And forget I'm here.
I wouldn't dream of joining
And I wouldn't dream of pulling you away
Or of making the smile disappear
But I wish the smile was there while I was around, too
And I wish I was there to see it.
But that's me, right?
Two parts alone, one part lonely.
Alone isn't lonely.
Lonely is just another form of pain,
A flaw that comes with existing:
Feeling like you don't exist.
YOU ARE READING
of rants and poems.
Poesíabasically a bunch of raw emotions compiled into sentences and so-called stanzas of free-verse. if you could even call it that. either way, trigger warning and things like that. also it's unedited blasts of feelings and ranting. it's not something i...