i fucking broke my finger.
or maybe it's just sprained! or really badly jammed!
but seeing it turn blue and begin to ache
reflects back on me
I'm carrying the weight of the fucking world
and now I can't draw. or write. or play volleyball.
oh, sports. haha, exercising is dumb!
FUCK YOU!
YOU KNOW WHAT FUCK THIS STANZA BULLSHIT OKAY BECAUSE I NEED EVERYONE TO TAKE IT A FUCKING STEP BACK
I TRY MY HARDEST TO FIT IN EVERY DAY AND RECENTLY IT HAS BEEN CRUMBLING IN MY HANDS
IVE FORGOTTEN HOW TO MOTIVATE MYSELF!
IVE FORGOTTEN HOE TO SOEAK EITHOUT THAT LITTLE VOICE GOING NO ONE CARES AND IM SORRY BUT IM NOT!
I KNOW I CANT BE A PART OF THEIR WORLD!I KNOW IM THE ODD ONE OUT
IM NOT NORMAL, IM DAMAGED PROPERTY. IM A LIABILITY. ITS EASIER TO LAUGH AND JOKE WHEN IM NOT PLAYING! ITS EASIER TO DO EVERYTHING WHEN IM FUCKING GONE
AND HERE I AM TRYING MY FUCKING HARDEST AND MY FINGER IS HURT AND IM SITTING OUT IN PRACTICE AND IM KEEPING MY DISTANCE AND I HAVE AN EXCUSE NOT TO WRITE THINGS DOWN OR TRY IN SCHOOL AND ITS ALL CRUMBLING
and it really is broken and the recovery time is long and I want to go to school and try and be normal and not cry and everything is so hard all the time and im sorry for all of this
and they said ADDRESS IT ITS BROKEN and I did put it off and I avoided it because that's what I do thats how I work and suddenly it's fractured and I won't fit in for weeks and I have tons of homework and I just want to lay down and sleep and cry please please please let me take a break
my soul feels fractured my life force seems fractured and there goes drawing and sports and writing and what am I left with doing what am I supposed to do
who am I
fuck im in tears
fuck this stupid broken finger
fuck trying to save everybody and save myself it's so hard to keep going and I don't even know if she cares and im so so sad
im trying my best
why do I feel so broken
why am I so goddamn broken
YOU ARE READING
of rants and poems.
Poesiabasically a bunch of raw emotions compiled into sentences and so-called stanzas of free-verse. if you could even call it that. either way, trigger warning and things like that. also it's unedited blasts of feelings and ranting. it's not something i...
