of rants and poems.

hatred.

guess I got kind of angry. unedited.

AND SHE HATES THEM! 

WITH EVERY OUNCE OF HER.

SHE NEVER UNDERSTOOD FAMILY.

BECAUSE FAMILY HAS BROKEN SO MANY PEOPLE.

WHETHER IT’S BECAUSE ALCOHOL HAS INVADED

OR DEATH HAS BROKEN THEM

OR THE COMMENTS.

ALL IT DOES IT GIVE THEM AUTHORITY

OVER THE PERSON

THAT THE KIDS TRY TO GROW INTO

IT’S NEVER MEANT TO BREAK YOU

YET THESE DAYS?

IT SEEMS AS IF FAMILY IS THE SOURCE

OF ALL HER PROBLEMS.

THEY BROKE HER.

THEY MANGLED HER.

THEY MAKE HER SCARED TO TRUST.

BECAUSE HER “ATTITUDE”

AND HER “DISRESPECT”

IS HER VOICE

HER TRYING TO STAND UP FOR HERSELF.

LIKE THEY TAUGHT HER TO DO.

AND SHE’S SHY, CLOSED OFF.

BECAUSE SHE WAS TAUGHT NOT TO SHOW THAT

TO OTHER PEOPLE.

THROUGH THEIR COMMENTS.

AND THEY’VE RUINED HER.

BECAUSE SHE FOUND THAT SHE CAN’T TELL THEM ANYTHING.

SHE FOUND THAT HER VOICE.

AND HER CHOICES.

ARE WRONG.

HAS LEARNED HOW TO LIE FROM THEM.

WHILE BEING TOLD TO NEVER LIE.

HAS LEARNED HOW TO HATE, FROM THEM.

AS THEY TELL HER TO ONLY LOVE.

SHE HAS LEARNED IT FROM YOU!

AND MAYBE YOU’RE TOO SHALLOW OF PEOPLE TO REALIZE

IT’S TOO HARD TO SEE HER REAL FACE NOW.

IT’S STREAKED WITH TEARS

AND CAGED

BY YOUR WORDS.

SHE WANTS TO SCREAM BUT YOU’VE SILENCED HER.

AND SHE’S LEARNED NOT TO CRY IN FRONT OF YOU.

SHE’S LEARNED

TO NEVER EXPLAIN HER BELIEFS.

BECAUSE YOU WON’T LISTEN TO HER

YOU’LL LISTEN TO THE PERSON SHE WILL BE

YOUR EXPECTATIONS THAT OTHERS HAVE TO FOLLOW

YOUR LIFESTYLE.

AND SHE’S WAITED MONTHS SOMETIMES

TO TELL YOU SOMETHING LITTLE

BECAUSE SHE’S UP TOO LATE WONDERING HOW LONG

THAT CONVERSATION WILL BE

IF YOU’LL TAKE IT ONE WAY OR ANOTHER

BLAME HER REAL FAMILY-

HER FRIENDS -

FOR IT

OR MAYBE YOU’LL PUT HER INTO A CATEGORY

LABEL HER “ANGSTY TEENAGER”

AND MAKE HER FEEL LOW.

AS IF ALL SHE’S EVER BEEN THROUGH, AND SAID, AND FELT

IS SOME NUMBER.

THAT IT’S PREDICTABLE.

AND YOU’VE DONE IT BEFORE.

AND SHE CAN’T WAIT TO GET ENOUGH MONEY

TO GET A HEAD START

LEAP OUT OF YOUR LIVES

BECAUSE ALL YOU DO IS HURT HER

AND SHE HATES YOU

AND WILL NEVER BE THE SAME

IT’S NOT GROWING UP

THAT CHANGED HER INNOCENCE.

IT’S YOU.

AND ALWAYS HAS BEEN.