of rants and poems.

love

unedited.

I think I love too much.

I'm flustered

and I'm nervous

and I think I can hide it.

I'm scared.

I'm unsure of what you'll think of me

and there are times I can't sleep

because I'm stuck wondering

about you

what if you were next to me

what if I wrapped my hand in yours

what if I ignored

all of that bullshit

that said "you're going to hell (for love!)"

that has shocked me into silence.

I'm a little too wary.

too afraid of saying it wrong

I'm too much of a tiny star

while you are a beautiful universe.

too afraid to tell you I missed you.

even if it was only a pause

in our endless conversations.

I keep all the smiles we've shared

and I keep warmth in my heart

to keep shadows and dark clouds

at bay.

and I wonder what would happen

if you did read this.

I hate that you wouldn't even know

that this

and all my thoughts

and daydreams

revolve around you.

I hate to think that you will never know

That I love you

A bit too much.