I belong to a stranger (PUBLISHING) Belong Book 1 - Unedited

Chapter 34 - Touches and Tortures

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Chapter 34 – Touches and Tortures

 

I loved him. I love him, and I didn't know if I could ever stop loving him. Here I was under him, when he asked me the question that could change our relationship forever, it could change me forever.

"Rose, let me make love to you"

His words were left hanging in the air, he looked at me with a smiling, telling me with his eyes that it was ok if I was not ready. It was all-ok, it was better than ok, it was perfect. I had never thought that after confessing my feelings, things would be how he reacts.

'Yes!'  my inner voice yelled out almost aloud. Today, for the first time ever my inner female, my inner voice and my heart all felt in the same place. All of them felt with Nathan.

 

I wasn't able to answer him though; my emotions were clogging my throat. I could still feel the kisses he had showered me with, taking away all my tear burning beautifully into my skin. If he wasn't up there, above me expecting me for an answer, I would have touched my face again and again, playing those every moments in my head.

My quietness made him restless, I could see him growing impatient for my response. But how could I respond? He had be spell bound under him. His brown eyes, his chiseled face, I kept on wondering how could a man like him want me? His powerful form above me with his shoulders so broad that he could swallow me as a whole. He felt like a Greek god, hovering over a mere mortal like me.

"Is it because of Sarah?" The reminder of the name should have brought back bitter memories by inner voice, but the only thing I could remember at the moment was Nathan holding me and cradling me in his arms.

"Dammit! I knew it was" he moved away frustrated. No No I didn't want him to move away. He sat beside me on the bed, running his hands through his hair wildly. Why was he getting it so wrong? The only thing I was thinking about right now was being close to him, and he was bringing other people into this situation.

"It didn't mean anything Rosie!" he looked at me with eyes pleading. I knew that, I knew that there was nothing between us; I had seen it in his eyes. I knew Sarah was beautiful and tall and everything I was not, maybe he just slipped, did a mistake. I knew it was unacceptable anyways, but I couldn't let her steal our moment.

"I was just afraid" he was afraid? "The things I feel, they are not normal. I was never a possessive man. But the second someone so much as even says your name I want to punch him to pulp. You drive me insane. I just..." he looked around for some form of explanation he could derive from the room. 

It was little to say that I was shocked. My hands clenched over the silky white bed sheet. It was shocking to know that I could drive him insane, when it was me who always wanted to pull my hair out due to his unpredictable shades.

"I hadn't even talked to Sarah all this while. Why the fuck would I even think about her with you here. But then I wanted to push you away, you were scaring me and I thought maybe if I kissed Sarah in front of you..." he pushed his hands through his hair again frustrated that he couldn't explain it properly. "Uh! Fuck!"

He was scared of me? Was that even making any sense? But right now, what I wanted was to be with him, close to him, there was no way I could let anyone, especially that Sarah come between us.

The things I just felt, moments ago, I wasn't ready to let them go, not now, not ever. But how could I tell him what I wanted? That I just wanted him to shut up and kiss me and be with me. I recalled how courage moments ago had made me say those three words to him, and how beautiful had that been. I stirred courage in my heart again.