Muke One Shots

Skinny Love

The song for this chapter: Skinny Love [Duh :/ ]

*Possible Trigger*

Luke's POV:

He told me that he loved me. He said it every day we were together, and he lied. He lied to me when all I did was love him, all I wanted was for him to love me... I thought he did. That was another lie.

Come on skinny love, just last the year

He never loved me. He never cared. He used me. I loved him with everything that I had and he just through it away like it was nothing. Like I was nothing. Like we were nothing.

Pour a little salt, we were never here

I just sat in my room, staring at the boring grey walls. Nobody would love me. Nobody could love me. i can't be loved and thanks to Michael I know that now. I don't hate Michael. I could never hate him, i love him even after everything that he did to me.

Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

I kept thinking what would have happened if I never met him and I keep coming to the same conclusion: I would never know what love feels like. Even if he never truly loved me, it felt like he did. I loved him.

I tell my love to wreck it all

I sit up, slouching slightly. My wrists hurt because, well you know. Couldn't deal with the pain, I'll save you the sob story. I walked toward the bathroom and sat on the edge of the bath. I looked over to the sink, all the razors just piled up one by one. I never used the same razor twice because i don't deserve to feel the same pain twice, so each time I get a sharper one than before.

Cut out all the ropes and let me fall

Nobody knows that I cut. Nobody needs to know, nobody will care anyway. Michael wouldn't care, he proved that when he slept with Ashton. Ashton wouldn't care, Calum wouldn't care, nobody would care.

Right in the moment this order's tall

I didn't want to die, but I knew I had to. I had it all planned out. Cause myself pain and then take it all away. Although I don't wanna die from cutting too deep, I want to feel the air being taken from my lungs. I deserve this.

And told you to be patient, and I told you to be fine

I sat up from the bath's edge and turned around, turning the bath's water faucet on and letting it fill to the top. I then turn arpund and stumble over to the sink. I slid the cabinet mirror open and grab the anti-depressant pills that I had gotten a few months before, although I never bothered to take them because I needed them for this. I dumped the whole bottle into my hand and stare at them for a few seconds before putting them all in my mouth.

And I told you to be balanced, and I told you to be kind

I swallow them all without water, i don't deserve water. I feel the drousiness overcoming me and my eyes began to water. I stepped into the freezing cold water, I don't deserve warm water.

And in the morning I'll be with you, but it will be a different kind

I just sat there until I only saw white. I saw nothing but white. And then I saw nothing.

Cause I'll be holding all the tickets and you'll be owin' all the fines

Michael's POV:

I got the news yesterday. We all did. Luke is gone and it's all my fault. His parents don't know what happened between me and him, they thought we were still a happy couple, they deserve to know, but I can't tell them. So I wrote a letter:

Dear Mr. and Mrs. Hemmings,

If you knew what I did then you would want me dead, so I'll do it myself. I'll be with Luke, I will make it better. I promise. He deserved much better than me because I was unfaithflul. I cheated on him with someone and I don't deserve air. I don't deserve happiness -Michael

I looked at the gun. If Luke goes, I go to. I brought it to my head and rest there. You killed Luke, that's all it took for me to pull the trigger.

"Hey Luke,"

"Hey Mikey."

Come on skinny love, what happened here?

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I am a terrible person. What is wrong with me. I cried. @michaeltheonion probably did too. Oh jesus I need therapy now...

-M