Muke One Shots

Goodbye

LUKE

Why must I be like this? Sad, lonely, depressed.

I never intended to hurt him, to do those things to him, but I did.

I did this, I have to make it right.

The fans don't have to know I did this because of our relationship. They can think I couldn't handle the hate.

Sometimes I look back on what I did and think of it as a good thing. I set him free when I cheated. I let him go, like I was meant to.

We were never the perfect couple, nobody is. We were constantly fighting and the only way we solved anything was sex. And it was always rough and quick, like there was no love put into it.

That's why I cheated. I needed an escape from the tension in the air. I had to escape the smoke of our relationship. I needed to feel loved.

Flashback -

The air was heavy as drunken teenagers swayed back and forth to the music.

I wasn't drunk, I was completely sober. I wanted to find someone in here like me, someone who wants something more than just sex.

I eventually found a tall, lean boy near the bathroom entrances. He seemed to be doing the same as me, looking for sober people to talk to.

His hair was slicked up in a small quiff and he was dressed in some skinny jeans, a blue t shirt, and a black blazer.

He was leaning up against the wall, scanning his eyes over the intoxicated dancers.

I slowly approached him, not wanting to scare him off. I gently tapped him on the shoulder and awaited him to turn around. Eventually, he did.

"Hi," He smiled politely, looking at me with a kind face.

"Hi," I breathed out in relief. He wasn't an asshole.

"I'm Luke." I added.

"Nice to meet you, I'm Nathan." He replied, gently flipping his hair to one side.

"I have a question and it might sound a little weird." I shakily said.

"Yeah, whats up?" He asked, still smiling.

"Will you make me feel special?"

Then it was all over the headlines:

5SOS band member apparently sleeps with One Direction's rivaling band 'The Wanted' member, Nathan Sykes.

Then there were pictures of us kissing at the club, us leaving the club, entering his apartment, and then leaving his apartment.

It shouldn't matter that I slept with him. If I had slept with some random guy, nobody would care. Just because of some stupid rivalry, I can't like him.

He made me feel good.

But, that was a one night thing. Then, I had to face reality.

My band member hated me. Nobody from 1D would talk to me and I was left to sit in my room, dwelling on my mistakes.

But it wasn't a mistake. It was a gift. He made me feel loved, and Michael got set free.

I quickly reached over and grabbed my phone, turning it on and pressing the Twitter app.

I quickly composed a tweet with one simple word that some will get and some won't

'Goodbye'

I never thought I would be the one holding the gun.

I never thought I would be the one killing myself.

But then again, the past is full of untrue thoughts.

*bang*

So yes, that happened. Idek where that came from, but it did and it is not climbing back inside of the womb. Long story.

PLEASE! Don't hate one The Wanted in this chapter, they are my bæs!

That was my secret btw and don't hate me please?!

QOTD: Can you guys give me some idea for my 5SOS preference book? I only have 'How he cuddles you' and I need some more ideas!

Ily :-*