Quiet | afi

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When I went to bed, I layed awake thinking. Not just about the date but what Michael had said before I left and Ashton at the restaurant. I needed to lose weight. Michaels just saying that to be a good friend and of course Ashton expects me to get a milkshake, I drink them all the time, that's a lot of calories.

A: Lauren wants to go to the mall today, would you like to come?

N: sure

A: be at your place in an hour, you can bring Brooke if she wants

Brooke didn't want to come so I got dressed and waited for Ashton, when I was finishing my makeup there was a knock on my door

"Come in" I said in between brushing mascara. I closed the tube and left the washroom

"You ready?" Ashton asked

"Once I put on shoes, yes" I picked up black vans and sat on my bed to put them on

"How'd you sleep?"

"Pretty good" I lie, knowing I was up half the night. I stand up and finally walk over to him and hug him

"That's good, Laurens waiting in the car so let's get going" we started walking to the car "I'm pretty sure she's meeting friends there so we won't have to deal with her long" she was sitting in the back so I sat in shotgun

"Hi Natashia"

"Hi Lauren, how's school going?" She began talking and rambling like she usually does but I listened. I felt something on my knee causing me to turn around. Ashton put his hand on my thigh. I put mine on top of his and continued listening to Lauren talk.

Within 15 minutes Lauren saw a group of her friends and went off with them. So now Ashton and I were walking around

"I need lunch or something, do you want food?" He asked

"No thanks"

"You sure?"

"Yeah I ate before I came" I lied. we waited in line at a place in the food court. After he got his food we sat at a table and talked as he ate

"I'm surprised you haven't even taken one fry yet"

"I told you I'm not hungry"

"Are you okay?" I nod

Ashton and I hung around the mall for about an hour and we got bored. We were at Ashton's house now watching a movie. He sat up against his headboard and I curled into his side. My phone buzzed halfway through

B: moms taking us out for dinner, we need to meet someone

B: she says we're leaving in 2 hours

N: ok I'll be home soon

"I have to go, mom wants me and Brooke to meet someone at a dinner"

"Ok, need a ride?"

"Yes please" we get up and go downstairs, putting on our shoes before getting in the car. Moms car pulled in the driveway at the same time

"Oh good you're home" she said as I got out of the car "we're leaving in 2 hours so get ready"

"Ok" I went around to Ashton's window "I'll text you later"

"Bye Tash" he smiled before leaving

"What kind of occasion am I dressing for?" I asked mom

"Just a nice dress" I nodded and went back into my room. I took a quick shower and chose a short navy dress with a high neckline. It was flowy below my waist. I met mom and Brooke back in the house "ok let's get going" we took her car to a nearby restaurant that was decently fancy. We followed her to a table, her on one side and me and Brooke on the other.

"Who are we meeting?" Brooke asked

"Oh there he is now" she smiled behind us. The guy was fairly young, maybe late 20s. Mom got up and hugged him before they both sat "girls, this is my fiancé, Ryan" I almost choked on my water

"Fiancé?' I said

"Yeah" he said "you must be Natashia and Brooke" at least he know our names.

The rest of the dinner was painfully awkward. We were home around 7 and I went straight to my room, not wanting the food to settle in my stomach. I changed into pajamas quickly. This isn't bad right? Of course not tons of people make themselves throw up. I paced around the room before going the toilet. I took my index finger and put it in my mouth

1 pound. I checked the scale the next morning and I'd only lost 1 pound. I spent that Sunday by myself doing homework and hanging out. I wrote a song called 'Vapor' too. The lyrics aren't perfect but I'll work on them later. We sat at the lunch table the next day at school

"It's my birthday in 2 weeks" Michael says

"Party and my place?" Luke offers and he nods "will Natashia come to this?"

"For Michaels birthday I will"

"You haven't touched your food yet" Michael says

"I'm not too hungry" I push my tray to my right towards him "you can have it"

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine"

"I'm here if you want to talk " I nod in response

Within that week, Ryan had basically moved in. Which didn't affect me much since my room isn't inside. I'd lost 5 pounds now too but it doesn't feel like it. I had barely eaten anything but if I had, I made sure to throw it up