about time (GxG)

Twenty five

It hurts..... looking at her hurts
Standing on the school's stage, looking at all these teenage judging faces, I took a deep breath trying to stop my entire body from shaking, my eyes from finding their way to look at her, smiling to her new, not so new, squad.
I felt betrayal, I felt doubt and most of all, I felt pain. It is not the regular paper-cut pain or even broken bone pain. It was an excruciating pain in my heart. The Familiar pang in my heart whenever I see her having free time for everyone else but me. It has been two years since we hugged, two years since she decided to just fade away from my life. Just like that without even an excuse or a fight.  
It started with, practice excuses then work at modeling agency excuses, going all the way to girlfriends and parties and Dj job. Eventually, I understood that she just busy when it came to me. Who will blame her, I'm just a dork who spends her time writing and or in her mom's tattoo shop. I became no fun to her and she dropped me like dead meat, Gosh it hurts and I cried, binge ate and regretted my decision to come back in time for her. I miss my grandpa, my dog, and my life. I sacrificed everything for her and she just flipped me off.
I glanced at Harriet who is sitting behind our school piano giving me a thumbs up, I smiled at her feeling a little bit less nervous. Harriet came to live with us a month after the incident, blonde and shy but with an observant eye. It took us time to communicate since she was really shy but we had a mutual love for art, and so we talked about that, she is a wonderful illustrator and I taught her painting.
The hole Ruby punched right in my chest was a little bit less painful with her, she wasn't a fully developed witch but we all knew that she will be a powerful one, she could feel something but chooses not to press and make us uncomfortable, especially when her mother died after a year of living with us.
This entire thing was, to me, a wicked game. It's like how destiny humored me. It gave me the ability to travel in time yet I could never really change it. So I chose to sing wicked game when I decided recklessly to audition for the school's talent competition.
With all these emotions tucked deep in me I started to sing

I'd never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you
And I'd never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you
No, I don't want to fall in love (this girl is only gonna break your heart)
No, I don't want to fall in love (this girl is only gonna break your heart)
With you
With you (this girl is only gonna break your heart)......

I make eye contact with her every time, only to see her beautiful face holding a stone like expression, but never took her gaze away from mine like she usually does whenever we crossways in the school halls.
I finished trying so hard to hold my petty tears till bedtime, and the audience erupted with applauds making me blush. 
   Huge time skip if you didn't realize 🙂