about time (GxG)

Twenty-eight

I look at her slightly baffled " oh." Was all I could manage to say .
Her smile fades a little, and I could see a small blush on her cheeks curtsy to the moon light .
" I know it's stupid .. I'm sorry " scratching the back of her neck
"No no .. I'm just a little surprised.. congratulations! I'm happy for you... uhh so why are you telling me this instead of your new horde of model friends " I know I sound petty... but I couldn't stop myself.

Her frown replaced the embarrassment and she's looking at me like I'm crazy " Caramel! I know alright!... I know I fucked up with you and I deserve your cold treatment as it goes.... but honestly.,, i can't do it anymore! ... i can't pretend that I'm fine without you! And as selfish as this may seem.,,, i can't really enjoy this without you " her answer took me by surprise. But I tried not to show how happy i feel by her words ... she still feel something for me .. whether it is friendship or just gratefulness.. I'm okey with anything. I know I sound desperate but I really can't stay in this time without her.. I mean, I did leave my entire life behind for her... and it's been years since I've saw my grandpa and normal people. Honestly, fourteen  years of difference can do wonders. People from this time are definitely not my muse. Everyone is a huge bundle of judgement.

" well.. I'm happy that you want to share your good news with me.. after all .. I just want to make sure, you're not giving up on college and real diplomas. Otherwise, you are meant for things greater than just a pro model... keep that in mind" I smile , touching her shoulder for the first time in two years.
" this is only the beginning of the Ruby Rose, you'll become.. just  focus on your goals and keep hustling " she rolled her eyes with a cute smile " you and your weird expressions"

I smile, enjoying her beautiful face, she seems to flourish in days... and I sound like a mom. " okey then.. umm gonna go now if this is all you want to tell me" shuffling awkwardly in the middle of her room. The lack of light works in favor for this place. Everything is messy and she has weird stuff laying around , assuming from all those photo shoots she was in. The door is a little bit out of it hangers, which means she just got it back. Aunt Katia must've grounded her for something.
" Y-You don't have to... I mean , it's too cold and too late. You can sleepover? Uh like old times ? I have joints! I heard you only smoke weed so" I raised an eyebrow but didn't comment .
" okey sure"

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Passing the second joint now, both very comfortable beside each other on the mattress,staring at the ceiling like it's the most interesting thing in the world " I had to fucking run like Hell from there" I snorted laughing quietly, I hope, at her weird experiences shes telling me.
" is that why aunt Katia took your door away?" She shook her head yes incapable of answering.
" you really shouldn't mess with your mom... she's so cool to the point if she gets mad at you... you're done!" We both cracked like it's the best joke we ever heard
" no seriously tho, I didn't know that that party was too loud.. and the police would come " I shook my head
Hitting the blunt in silence .
" you know... you look so damn hot in the beach party... I don't know why you aren't dating the most handsome guy in this city!" Ruby blurted. It took me a moment to answer
" I don't think I swing that way" fuck!saying that out loud was still weird .. even with the help of weed .
She turned to look at my face, her eyes wide and beautiful.. like jewels.
" are you telling me that you're gay?" She replied. Almost too stunned to elaborate.
I nod, a little shy
" I'm actually surprised that your gaydar didn't spot me.. I mean I had it all.. crazy sense of fashion, dark sarcasm and a cat!" She chuckled but she was still shocked.
I snatched the blunt from her fingers, blowing the smoke to the ceiling
" your mom isn't home is she?" I asked for assurance, the weed smell stink the entire room
" nah, she didn't say where but I bet she has a date" ruby replied nonchalantly
" so... umm who makes you question your sexuality ?" She asks, which leads me to make eye contact with her and said the unforgivable
" you"
We both froze... ruby almost dropping the blunt on the mattress while my hand was too late to slap my mouth shut and prevent me from saying shit like that.. although it is sort of true, just that she was an inmate with cooler haircut .
" I didn't mean to say that... I meant you .. uh .. inspired me.. kinda" I tried to cover my last confession but my head is too high to think for logical reason to why I said , it was her who made me realize how gay I am.
Silence.
It's all I got from her, with her lips parted like she is in some kinda of a trance... I've waited for her to snap out of it and make fun of me already, or say whatever, just talk to me . But she took too long for my liking. Even the blunt was long smoked by the air.