Adopted by The Janoskians

Chapter 17 - Back On Track

Chapter 17 - Back on track

(Please read the A/N at the end)

Mollie’s POV: 

I woke up alone in Beau’s bed, I looked at the alarm clock 

11:12 am 

It doesn’t feel real you know?

Yesterday I tried to kill myself.

Quiero suicidarme.

Translation: I want to kill myself (present tense) 

It feels like I’m not awake, like maybe I did jump and this is me seeing what would have happened if I didn’t. 

I stare at the purple wall infront of me for around 10 minutes and still I cannot gather the strength to move. I don’t know if it’s because I’m tired or because I am so anxious to see Gina. I mean the boys know, the boys saved me but Gina is my mum I guess, and thats very different. 

I’d probably end up back in the orphanage and seeing some psychiatrist who asks stupid questions like: Why? How did you feel? in a boring monotone voice. 

If I didn’t have to continue to be a depressed fuck up maybe I could have stayed and had a nice family and Robyn would still be alive. 

I was imagining being someone else when I heard a knock on the door. 

“Yes,” I spoke weakly my voice quiet and hoarse. 

The door opened and there stood Gina, black make up running down from her eyes, pooling on her cheeks. Her eyes red and big and glassy. For a moment I listened to her breathing and in it I swear I heard whispered words of an angel. 

Suddenly Gina fell to the floor screaming and crying and yelling. I watched from the bed to frozen to move, paralyzed from the flashback of Beau. 

Guilt weeping from my veins, what had I done? 

Gina’s POV:

I woke up later than usual, I didn’t have work today and had arranged for Mollie to look around Penola at 1:00. 

I looked at the alarm clock and saw it was 10:30, Luke and Jai would have left for school and Beau would still be asleep. 

I rubbed my eyes and lazily got out of bed, I looked in the mirror and sighed, I had forgotten to take my make-up off from yesterday and though it was still neatly done, would now take much longer to take off. I slipped some slippers on my cold feet and a dressing gown tied round my body, I wandered downstairs.