The Women Series: Payment

Payment 6

THE WOMEN SERIES: PAYMENT

6
He's back

It's been three weeks since nangyari yung halik na iyon, at hanggang ngayon hindi ko parin ito maalis sa isip ko. Naiinis lang ako kapag nakikita ko si Hajik kaya hindi na lang ako umiimik pero nakalimutan kong Block Adviser ko pala siya kaya lagi akong napagtritripan sa recitation.

Lagi niya akong pinaparecite or more on pinapahiya, kasi naman ang layo ng isip ko sa lesson namin at feel ko ibabagsak niya ako pero hindi kasi makikita ko ulit siya. Kaya napag isipan ko na mag se self study na lang. Pero ni isang information walang pumapasok sa isip ko.

Kung hindi lang sana kay Hajik at dun sa ginawa namin ay malamang concentrate na concentrate na ako sa pag-aaral.

"Aphroooo! Bakit ngayon lang kita nakita?" Sabi ni Sia.

"Eh meron naman akong phone, diba? Isip fren, Isip!" Pasigaw kong sabi. Yeah right. Naiinis kasi ako dun sa lalaking yun.

"Wala sa mood fren? May dalaw?" Tanong ni Sia.

Ngumuso na lang ako kasi ayaw kong may maka alam ng mangyayari. Urgh, I'm frustrated.

"Girl, kung ano man bumabagabag sa isipan mo. Tandaan mong mas lalala yan pag malaman mo." Nakaka kabang sabi ni Sia.

"What is it?" Tanong ko.

"It's for you to find out. I hope I can tell, but baby girl. My class is starting." Nalulungkot na tugon nito.

Nag-nod lang ako at mapait na ngumiti. Dalawa lang ang subject nito ngayon. Today is friday and tig two hours ang subject ko. One is Architecture-1 and the other is NSTP. My chosen sport is Archery pero feel kong hindi pumasok ngayon.

I have 24 units every week, kaya yun. 8:45 is the time. I need to go to the Architecture-1, now.

Matamlay na naglalakad akong pumunta sa room. Wala ako sa mood pero, why am I feeling this one? Kinakabahan ako. Silly.

Mapait akong ngumiti at pumunta sa room. Ang aga ko naman sobra. Hmm. Sinalpak ang aking earphones at nagmuni muni sa desk ko. This is our third meeting at ngayon tuturuan kami ng Theories of Architecture.

Nahati kami into two groups. Salamat at hindi ko teacher si Hajik tuwing friday. Haist.

First six girls and last seven boys ang group ko, kami ang second group and ang first group is the first six boys and last six girls.

Hindi ko man maamin ang mapait nararamdaman ko ngayon pero alam ko kung ano ang araw na ito.

August 7

Ito ang araw na iniwan ako ng bestfriend ko three years ago. Sa pagpatak ng ika-pito ng Agosto ay matamlay ang dalaga at naglulukso sa damdamin nito.

At ang luhang kanina niya pa pinipigilan, ay parang may sariling huwisyo at dahan-dahang umagos galing sa mata patungo sa pisngi nito.

"Something about the way that you walked into my living room,
Casually and confident lookin' at the mess I am,
But still you, still you want me."

I let my tears fall as I was drifted to the music, slowly. My soul became one with the message of the song.

She was his aid, but then he left her. She was his medicine, but then he left. She was his refuge, but then he wreck. She was his light, but then the switch was broken.

"Oh, I always let you down
You're shattered on the ground,
But still I find you there,
Next to me,
And oh, stupid things I do,
I'm far from good, it's true,
But still I find you,
Next to me."