Destiel Oneshots (Ger/Eng)

4 - Lost [Eng]

Category: Angst / Shorty

»Something about you made me feel a little more alive and a far less lost.«
- The Better Man Project

All he could feel was sadness. Sadness and pain, crawling through his skin and right into his heart. Since his most beloved one died, nothing in this world could make him smile again. Nothing could make him feel alive again.

A bitter laugh fulfilled the room. He, as an angel of the lord, shouldn't have felt anything, especially not for a human, but he did. He loved the man whom he should have protected, but couldn't. He hated himself for that. Nothing ever has made him hating himself more than that. And he had done many things wrong in the past.

Once again, he was alone. There were people around him, but his soul was crushed. Loneliness was the only thing he felt besides the pain. It was tearing him apart, and he couldn't even visit him in heaven, because he was not allowed to. Everything seemed to be against him.

He prayed to him every night, which was kind of ironic because he was the fallen angel of them two. He was just hoping he could hear him, just sometimes maybe, so that he knew he still thought of him. All the time. Anytime.

When he had come into this world first, he was lost.

After some time, he found friends, a family, love. He experienced life, pain, comebacks, happiness, fulfillment.

Now all of that was gone again.
He was lost again.

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Hope you enjoyed this short one. I started writing it before I translated the last one, but yeah, there's a resemblance.

Again, if there are any mistakes you can find, please tell me. I'm struggling with the past tense sometimes, that's why I'm kind of insecure about my grammar.

Don't worry, a fluffy or funny one will follow folks!

Have a good one :)
glitzerfurz✨💨