1/1/2025 (Gonna take me a while to get used to writing 2025!)
So of course the first dream of the year I have is seriously weird: I was on a bus going to the place I was trying to get to yesterday and everyone heard a voice saying to throw out any books we currently had in our bags or we would be in danger. No one took it particularly seriously but then a dark cloud started forming at the back of the bus and everyone started panicking trying to throw away the books and praying. The dark cloud turned into an angel (They had a light aura but no halo or wings but we all knew it was an angel somehow idk) and I thought I had woken up because I was back in my room and the angel (looking back on it now I'm actually awake I am wondering if it was an angel or just pretending to be one) said I needed to "wake up and face it" I asked them what I was supposed to deal with and the angel just exasperatedly asked if I had been paying attention at all and left by walking through the door like a ghost. (Some completely useless bonus information but in this dream ice cream cost £10.50 and busses looked like miniature old fashioned trains that were green and only had two carriages)
2/1/2025
Well I actually went to the place for real today. Nothing really happened except I found a Wonder Woman t-shirt in a charity shop that I've been wanting for ages. There was this really cool Medusa statue down by the river front that I was going to take a picture of but I forgot to take my phone with me. In other news I have a bunch of songs from Arcane stuck in my head.
4/1/2025
Not really a great day and it's been pretty boring recently but I did some painting and finally started writing in my new book. Turns out my entire family forgot about the Christmas cake so now it's a new years cake.
5/1/2025
Started writing an anxiety journal and no I am certainly not posting that online but I think I did find out what the problem was: I spent so long trying to be someone else because I was so terrified of getting into any kind of trouble that I never got to find out who I actually am.
I started having precognitive dreams during what was the best year of my life and since then I always knew I was destined to be a witch and that's one thing that has always persisted through all this so I'm going to start from there and work out who really I want to be. Yes I did have one of those random moments where I suddenly felt inspired to change things but this time it feels real and I have been more confident since acknowledging it.
