It's Destiny

Chapter 16: Wanna be Like You

Naomi's POV:

   I watched as Yuri wrapped her arm tightly with gauze. I watched as she cried softly, she gripped the counter in the bathroom tightly. Her eyes were brimming with tears and I felt awful for her.
   "I'd been doing so well Naomi, I hadn't hurt myself in almost a decade, I hadn't even had urges to ...to cut in like five years. I had gotten counseling, I was doing better....I was better ..." She sniffed, her hair curtaining her face as she quietly sobbed. I just wanted to help her. She looked so sad. This was all my idea so in a way it was my fault. 

  "I... I.. k-know h-h-how you....you feel Yuri, I....um.. had a...bad morning." I whisper, slowly I lifted my sleeve and showed her the scabbed over cut that ran just below my elbow. It was fresh, I had done it in the shower this morning after an awkward interaction with my moms, my stupid nightmare that had them overly concerned.

Yuri looked over at me, her eyes widening as she gently reached out and traced the few scars I had, like I had done to her just last night. I had a lot of markings, but not as many as Yuri.

  "Naomi no." She sniffed looking heartbroken. I shrugged tugging down my sleeve.
   "I'm just like you, I've never shown those to anybody Yuri." I whisper and she shakes her head and pulls me into a tight hug.
   "Oh Naomi, you shouldn't be like me! I don't even want to be me." Her voice is broken and pained as she cries.

  "I think you're strong.  You're stronger than anybody I've ever known." I encouraged as I hopped up on the counter and swung my legs leisurely back and forth.

  "No, no I'm a coward. When things get rough I run." She whispered straining her voice through the lump in her throat no doubt.
   "I run too, I'm just as big a coward as you." I reasoned and she looks at me, violet eyes pooling with tears.
   "Naomi you're a good kid. Don't let others tell you what you are or who you're going to be, just be you. Because after highschool and when you take that leap into adulthood none of this stuff will matter." She whispered looking lost in thought.

   "But ...nobody likes me at that school Yuri, Rory is the only one who even tries to be my friend... He says it's hard." I whisper trying not to cry. Yuri bends looking into my eyes gently.

   "Naomi, he's wrong, listen to me. Really listen. I am your friend. I was bullied all throughout highschool and some through middle School, until Natsuki came into my life, it was endless and awful. But once you find your special someone... Someone who cares about you and worries about your well being, someone who puts you above themselves and allows you to do the same for them. Someone who you're proud to be with, someone who makes you feel good." She whispered and I contemplated her words. Did Rory make me feel good? Was I proud to be with him?
  "Naomi answer me straight, does Rory fulfill any of what I just said?" She asked gently.

   "Honestly I don't think he does..." I murmured softly, then I looked up into her eyes. "But he's the best I got." I was adamant about this because without him, I had no one.
   "I remember your fifth birthday, there was three little kids there. Peter, Kimiko, and Tamlin. What happened to them?" She whispered and I thought of Peter and smiled.

   "Well Kimmy and Tammy fell in love and Peter, he's still around sometimes, he's so sweet and kind. They always check on me too, but Rory doesn't like when I talk to them." I whisper and Yuri tilts my chin so our eyes meet.

   "Rory sounds a lot like someone I use to know, and Naomi that relationship isn't healthy, it's toxic. Look Rory is a punk, he does what he wants. He doesn't care about what it does to you. Believe me I've had plenty of his type in my life." She reasoned and I frown looking deep in her eyes for the truth I questioned
   "What about Natsuki?"

   "Natsuki fit into a whole different category, she always made me feel good, she made me love myself again. She made me feel whole. When I was with her nothing else mattered. Not my brother's death or her home life. It was just Yuri and Natsuki, the underdogs." She laughed sadly as more tears started to spill over her eyes. "But I messed it all up." She whimpered reaching for some toilet paper as she dabbed at her eyes.

"Sure looked like she still cares about you to me." I reasoned as I recalled when Yuri came up the hill cradleing her arm as blood dripped through her fingers.
  "Yuri what the hell did you do to yourself?!" Natsuki had all but screamed as she took her arm, trying to look at the wound.

  "No, she should just forget me." She whispered softly, "I'm the heartless witch who broke her heart." She whispered sadly.

  "What happened?"I asked gently and she looked at me her eyes filled to the brim with heartache. She lowered herself to the toilet seat and sniffed.
  "I suppose I did say I'd finish the story. "

To Be Continued....